His Independent Luna

Chapter 4: Run Meliora

Let me escape in your arms

Baby I'm yours, baby I'm yours

Love don't come easy at all

I miss you so much, I miss you so much

Tell me is this freedom, baby?

Chasing after danger, making my heart beat, woah

Maybe if the stars align, maybe if our world's collide

Maybe on the dark side we can be together, be together

Maybe in a million miles, on the highway through the skies

Someday soon we'll be together

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Pain. It lives in my heart, my mind, and my soul. I can't escape it. I try so much that it hurts. It hurts to even try being happy. Why should I be happy when I know I shouldn't be. Maybe... just maybe... should I join them? 

I was an idiot to believe things were going to be perfect again. I know I shouldn't have but I did. I wanted things to be better. If my happiness were to come from Phoenix that would only be me using him. I can't do that to him. He deserves way better than some piece of dirt like me. 

I hope he leaves me alone for good. I can't let people down anymore. I just can't.

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I turn around and run towards somewhere where I know he can't find me. I have lived in these woods for basically the remainder of life and this is my home. 'Mel you know you can't outrun an Alpha' a quiet but pained voice says in my mind. "Please understand my reasoning Lux. I need to do this." I quickly dodge some branches and take a big leap over a boulder. 

As I'm running I hear a desperate shout for me. "WAIT, PLEASE STOP!!". 

I can't stop now. I take a deep breath and open my eyes towards what I've been running to. I've now ran miles away from his pack land and with him still really close to me I must do what I have been planning to do. Once I am a few feet ahead of Phoenix, I turn around to face him and with my best confident voice I start talking. "I must go. You will only be brought down and I know if I stay you'll be met with danger. Thank you for your kindness but I'm not one to love easily."

I take a step back and face away from him. In front of me I can see the ocean below me. I'm standing on a cliff and I know the water is deep enough for me to escape and live for the moment. I know Phoenix is about to try to stop me so I quickly shout with the new energy I mustered up, "Don't even bother trying to stop me. I'm not killing myself. I just need to be away from life for some time. I can't promise you this but one day our paths will cross and when they do I'll see what I want to do."

"Why are you running away? Why do you push me away? Do you not see me trying to help you? I try so god damn hard to make you happy but you're very distant. Please.... just don't leave me.  It kills me inside knowing something is bothering you and I can't help. I'm a fucking ALPHA and do you see how weak you've made me? I love you Meliora. So much that It saddens me when I can't be there for you."