Betrayal [Bucky Barnes x Reader]

Ending

Today for the first time since you left you're going back to your apartment to pick up the rest of your stuff. You would have just bought new clothes but it was Steve's idea to go back.
"I don't know Steve" you sighed as the car pulled up.

"Come on you're going with me" he placed his hand on your shoulder "It's gonna be fine".

"Fine" you opened the door of the car and took a deep breath.

"Let's go" he tapped my shoulder and walked to the entrance of the building.

"Are you sure he's not home?"

"Would i bring you here if he was?" Steve smiled at you.

"I don't know... he's your best friend" you were hesitating about walking in the building.

"I'm sure he's not home Y/N" Steve walked next to you towards the elevator.

When you walked in the apartment no one was there just like Steve said. You walked to the bedroom and felt pressure on your chest, it hurt to be there.
"I'll take your clothes if you want" Steve said from behind you.

"Y-yeah, I'll go to get the rest of my stuff from the bathroom" you made your way into the bathroom and didn't see any of your stuff, you looked up and saw that the mirror was broken "someone punched the mirror..." you murmured under your breath.

"Hey Y/N i don't know if this is your- woah" Steve said but stopped mid sentence once he saw the mirror.

"I can't find my stuff" you looked up at him.

"Maybe be he hid it somewhere" Steve looked around.

"Why would he do that?" You asked and followed Steve to tbe storage closet.

"Because of you" he explained "it reminds him of the mistake he made so that's why he would do that, probably right after he punched the mirror and a hole into the kitchen's wall"

"Damn" you were surprised "i would have never been able to read him like that"

"What can i say?" He chuckled as he opened the door to the storage closet and pointed at your stuff "I've known him all my life"

Steve took what was left to the car while you looked if there was anything else that was yours, but at this point you were just analyzing the apartment. Everything looked different. The counter was empty and every framed picture was gone. You traced your fingers down the shape of the frame that used to be on the wall until you heard the door open and close again.

"Steve?" You looked up and saw him, the man who broke your heart was standing in front of you.

"No, it's me" he said softly "Can we talk?"

"What do you wanna talk about?" You glared at him "there's nothing to talk about. What's done it's done and there's nothing you can do about it"

"I'm sorry Y/N" he took a step forward "i fucked up and you don't know how much i regret it"

"I can't believe you did that Bucky!" You grabbed your face and stepped back "you know, i thought you were the only person that would never hurt me... but you turned out to be the one to made the worst damage"

"I know and I'm sorry, i love you" his downcast expression said everything "I lost everything and i wish i could turn back time and just don't do it... Y/N you're the love of my life and i-"

"Don't say it" you snapped back "I'm not the love of your life! If i was you would have NEVER done that! Hell if you even loved me you would have never looked to the side for someone else" you sighed and looked down "Don't be so controlling, you don't love me you never did"

"How could you say that?" His eyes were watering. This was the first time you two talked after the incident and it hurted a lot.

"How long?" You answered his question with another question.

"What?"

"Don't play dumb you know what I'm talking about, how long?" even though it pains you to see him like that you had to know.

"One month" he let out a sob and looked down until you slapped him.

"And you regret it?" A wrathful smile appeared on your lips "you didn't just thought of stopping after the first time? Would you have stopped if i didn't caught you? Of course you wouldn't, now that you lost me you want me... that's not how it works Bucky"

"I didn't appreciated you and I'm sorry Y/N i love you" he sobbed and tried to grab your hand.

"Do you know much i cried? I keep asking myself why? Why did this happen to me? I deserve it? Tell me Bucky do i deserve this?" A tear fell down your cheek.

"You don't Y/N... i apologize you deserve so much more than this" he placed his hand on your cheek "I never wanted this to happen but..."

"But you did it anyways" you pushed him away "You broke my heart into pieces. I did loved you... i would give me life for you but you felt otherwise and i can no longer trust you"

"Please Y/N" his voice cracked.

"This is the end Bucky" you hated saying those words "I thought you'll be different... i thought i was the only one but i guess i was wrong"

"Is there anyth-" Steve walked in the apartment and saw you both a crying mess.

"There's nothing left" you said and walked back to the car.

This was the end of everything and it hurt way worse. You love him to death, he is the love of your life and the only man you'll ever love but you had to choose between loving him or yourself.

"Let's head back then..." Steve got in the car and sighed.

"How much of that did you hear?" You asked while wiping your tears away.

"Everything" he said and rubbed your back "I know it's hard Y/N but you have all of us"

"I'll be fine" you closed your eyes trying to go to your happy place but he was your happy place and now it was gone.

A week passed and every day felt like you were sinking deeper and deeper. You barely talked anymore, it was just a lot of nodding and humming.
You were now sitting on your bed with you knees on your chest.

"Y/N?" Wanda asked from the other side of the door.

"Come in" you said and took a deep breath.

"How are you feeling?" She sat next to you.

"Numb" you mumbled "i got nothing"

"You have us" she smiled "Are you sure you can go to the mission?"

"Yes, i am sure" you gave her a fake smile "my father said i should do what I'm good at"

"That's the spirit" she looked concerned "Why are you not thinking of anything?"

"I have nothing to think about" you said "every memory hurts. My mother is in a coma, my father is barely there and the man i love cheated on me"

"We're gonna make new memories i promise you" she hugged you "we can go to Hawaii or even Croatia, remember how much you used to talk about going there?"

"Yeah" you hugged her back and tried to cheer up even if it was just a little bit.