Loving the Lost

Take Backs

Jordan's POV

I Take Ms. Katie's Hand As She Reaches For Mine. The Doctor Clears His Throat, As If He Was Trying To Get Our Attention.

"I'm Sorry, But Ms. Delaney Has Passed." He Looks Us Directly In The Eye. I Instantly Feel Ms. Katie Fall To The Ground Crying. The Fall She Took Guck My Arm A Little. Then That's When The Tears Started To Fill My Eyes. Part Of Me Wants To Hate Myself For Taking Her To That Party And The Other Half Is Just In Shock. I Find Myself Looking Off Staring At Posters On The Wall Blinking Back The Tears. Until Finally They Won't Stay Shut Up Anymore They Just Roll Down My Cheeks. I Can't Take This Anymore The Love Of My Life Is Gone. We Have A Son. If She's Dead. Then I Want To DIE!!

I Turn Around To See Daniel In Sweat Pants & A Sweat Shirt.

"What Happened?? Is She Okay?? Have Y'all Already Been Back There???" He Questions.

I Just Look At Him My Mind Can't Process Questions Right Now. I Can't Process Words, Feeling. Nothing. All I Can Think Of Is Find The Nigga That Did It & F Him Up!!!

Daniel Starts Yelling. "Where Is My Little Sister????!!!! I Want To See Her Now!!!" He Demands. When He's Angry A Vein Pops Out Of His Forehead And It's No Telling What He'll Do. The Doctor Tells Him What Room Number She's In.

"Through The Double Doors. Make The 1st Left, 4th Door On The Right." He Directs. He Looks At Me Then At His Mom. He Disappears Through The Double Doors. Ms. Katie Regains Her Strength To Stand On Her Own. She Follows Her Son. I Dont Know If I'm Ready To Face Taylor's Dead Body Face To Face Yet. I Really Have Know Idea What It's Like To Have Someone So Close Gone In A Heart Beat. I Decided To Go On And Go See Her. What's The Worst Could Happen She Come To Haunt Me ?? So I Push Through The Double Doors And Follow The Directions All The Way To Taylor's Room. When I See Her I Immediately Recognize That Brown Skin That Reminded Me Of Milk Chocolate. By Now Daniels Face Is Full Of Tears. I Walk In A Little More. She Was Always Such A Light Sleeper. She Woke Up To All The Little Things. So When She Was Sleep It Seemed Like She Was Worried Or Something, Now She Looks Peaceful. The Doctors Come In And Says "It's Time To Cover Up The Body."

Ms. Katie Starts Yelling For Them To Leave Her Alone. Daniel And I Have To Escort Her Out Of The Room. This Feels Like Me Walking Off From DJ, Leaving Him On The Side Of The Road For A Stranger To Pick Him Up.

I Drive Taylor's Car To Ms. Katie's House. Daniel Takes Me Home. Then My 'Life' Is Officially Over.

"JORDAN MALIK MASS!!!! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN, YOUR PAST CURFUE!!! & DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME!!!" My Mom Yells As Soon As I Walk Through The Door.

"Ma!! I'll Tell You Tomorrow I Dont Feel Like Talking About It. Right Now. Plus I Gotta Go To School Tomorrow." I Quietly Say While Walking Up To My Room.

I Don't Shower Or Take Off My Clothes. Just Get In The Bed & Pray I Fall Asleep Before 7:30.

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This Chapter Is Dedicated To A Friend That Was Shot In The Back Of The Head. R.I.P Pooh.