Levels

Chapter One

Today was going to be a pretty chill day. I flipped through the channels looking for something to watch on TV. I could hear my phone ringing but the last thing I wanted to do was get up from my spot on the couch. 

"Where on our way now." K'lani said as I answered the phone.

"Okay, cool." I replied hanging up the phone. As expected my phone rang again. We go through this every few phone calls. In my eyes the conversation was over and 'Okay Cool' was my closing statement, unfortunately for K'lani it wasn't. She required more notice that the call was over. 

"Hey, Shamoya, yeah we are on our way!" She yelled into the phone "Now hang up in my face again!"

I couldn't help but laugh, K'lani was so fucking blunt and straight to the point. I bet she was itching to curse me out like every other time. 

"Okay Lani, the door is open." I replied snickering in a sassy tone because she was just that petty.

"Much better, see you in a few hun, bye." She replied hanging up.

I walked over and unlocked the door then returned back to the couch. I should have just put the game on because I know that's what we would be watching once the guys get a hold of the remote. Shortly after the whole squad was here. And like I said we sat and ended up watching the super bowl, I only payed attention for the commercials and half time, while well the boys watched the game. The majority of the time Lani and I talked and took pictures and posted on Snap.

By the way I'm Shamoya Alisha Williams.

Izayah, Khalil, K'lani, Letoya, Jermaine and myself all sat in the living room watching the game, carrying on and eating the delicious snacks everyone blessed me with. Everyone eyes were glued to the TV at this point, I didn't feel like watching this anymore. I was texting Lamar and he was starting to aggravate my entire soul. Lamar is my boyfriend, soon to be ex in a few texts. I got up and walked away. I've just about had it with this relationship and the insecurities that come with it.

"Where you going yo?" I heard Khalil ask me as I walked away.

I looked at him, he looked up at me and licked his lips. The things I'd do to that boy I thought to myself. I rolled my eyes in response to his actions.

"I just need some air." I replied looking at him and walking to the backyard.

Before I could even sit down my phone rang, it was Lamar. I looked at my phone momentarily debating if I should answer or just ignore him and keep the little sanity I have left or pick up and lose it all the moment I pick up.

"What do you want?" I answered picking up my phone ignoring my better judgment. I sat on the back patio, immediately regretting my choice.

"Open the door I'm outside." He replied.

I hated when he just shows up. I mean who likes uninvited guests anyway. And no matter what whenever he just pops up he is sure to leave me with a headache.

I walked to the front door and opened it, everyone looked as I walked upstairs with him. I entered my room and closed the door behind him. I sat across my room and leaned on my dresser and looked at him. This conversation could go one of two ways and at this point I didn't care which way it went.

"Look I love you Moya I really do but I can't be with you anymore. It's not you it's-" I laughed interrupting him.

"It's you hugh?" I laughed.

"No Lamar it's me, you deserve someone who is willing to drop their panties at your command. It's cool tho, I refuse to go back and fourth with you over my life choices." I said holding the door open for him.

"You remember your way out right!" I asked in a cold tone. He looked at me and walked away. I slammed the door and went to sit on my bed. I'm tired of being strong I just wanted to scream till I couldn't scream no more.

I was crying so much I didn't realize when Izayah walked in. He stood in front of me and pulled me into a hug I just cried in his chest. I didn't know what else to do. He just held me and let me cry.

"Wanna talk?" He asked.

I just looked at him. "Lamar broke up with me."

"You can do better than him. Think of all the times he's left you questioning yourself. You knew  you didn't need him you just didn't want to be alone. Stop crying Shamoya you're better than this. Besides this isn't the first time that he's broken up with you. He'll be back." Izayah said

"He won't I killed his baby and now that he knows I don't want to procreate with him he wont want to be with me anymore." I said breaking down again.

Izayah didn't say another word. He just held me tighter while I cried myself to sleep.

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