It Was Only Once

Chapter 1

10 years ago

"I know you can't commit, but that's not what I'm asking for." I said.

"Just remember that when I leave tommorow." Said Vincent Carmia, my crush since I was 5 and the guy I was about lose my virginity to.

"I will, just don't ignore me if I write to you, like my brother."

"I promise."

And that was when we got to it.

•~•~•~•

Three weeks later

Staring at the test I can't believe what I'm seeing. This shouldn't have happened, I was on the pill and he used protection.

I guess it's time to put my letter writing skills to the test. How am I going to tell Vincent he's a father? How am I going to deal with this? Will Vincent come home after his tour or will he even care about this baby?

Now what I need to figure out what to say, so here goes,

'Dear Vincent,

Remember that time we slept together at your going away party? Well about that, you must have real good swimmers or something because I'm pregnant. With your baby.'

No, I can't tell him like that can I? Maybe if I don't tell him he'll never find out. Why should I ruin his time while he's serving just dreading the moment he has to come home to me with a baby, his baby. Okay, it's decided I'm not gonna tell him.

•~•~•~•

9 months later

I'm now the mother of two beautiful baby girls, Lilliana and Stacie.

Who might not ever know their father. Both girls are going to know of him when there older, even if it's me who has to tell them.

Chapter 2

Now

My mothers house is a small town house in Bay City, Michigan. And My girls and I still living with her, a 27 year old and her 10 year old set of twins.

"Do you wanna know who I heard is coming back to town?" my mom said.

When I nod my she says "Vincent Carmia!"

When I hear his name I freeze. My mom always knew I liked him she just didn't know he was the girls' father, no one does only me.

"Do you know that for sure?" She nods. "how do you know?"

"Because I invited him over!" she said with a over excited smile.

"Why would you do that?" My tone harsher than I meant it to be.

My mom seemed unfazed by my harsh tone when she says "Because I know you liked him and I'm sure your brothers miss him, too I mean they were all best friends. Oh and your brothers are coming."

I can feel my jaw drop, I can't believe she invited my brothers, they practically shunned me when I was pregnant. They didn't even come to see the girls when They were born. They didn't even come talk to us at dad's funeral.

"When are they gonna be here?"I ask.

"Vincent is coming in at 7pm, but can you go pick him up from the airport? you can even take the girls if you need to." she said.

"Why can't you get him?"

"Because I have to go get your brothers."

"Alright, it 5:30pm now so I have to get the girls ready and then I'll leave, okay?" She nods.

•~•~•~•

Hour and a half later

The girls and I are waiting for Vincent now, his plane was delayed 20 minutes. the girls are asking a lot of questions about who we're picking up and I'm answering almost all of them until I here my name.

"Tiara, is that you?" A Voice said.

I turn around and there he is, Vincent Carmia. He looks almost exactly the same except bigger.

"Yeah, it's me. How have you been?"

"Good, you?"

"I'm okay, getting by."

"Mommy, is this who we were supposed to get?" asked Lillian.

"Yes it is, go tell your sister to pack up her coloring books. okay?"

"Okay."

I turn back to Vincent and see his surprised face. "You have kids?" He asked.

"Yeah, twins." And They're yours, but i didn't say that out loud.

"That's nice, how old are they?"

"9 an a half."

"Cool"

"Yeah, you ready?"

"Yeah, are you brothers gonna be home?"

"I don't know. Mom said they would, but they don't talk to me anymore."

"Why?"

"I got pregnant at 17"

Chapter 3

While Vincent got settled in I started on dinner. My favorite cheesy chicken and rice. Then the next thing I know I'm in a death grip hug. I try to turn around to see who it is, but his hold on me is to tight. When he finally puts me down I turn around to see my oldest brother, Jared.

He must have seen my surprised reaction because he said " What? Can't I give a hug to my little sis? And where are my beautiful nieces?"

"You haven't talked to me in years! You have only ever met the girls once and that was at dads' funeral, 4 years ago!! Whatever! The girls are in their room and Vincent is in the guest room."

"Thanks. You know I'm sorry right? So fucking sorry! Can you ever forgive me?"

"Your welcome. And I know your sorry but it's gonna take time to forgive you." He gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek, then he ran up the stairs towards the girls room and I can already hear their laughter, and that just brings a smile to my face.