Love, that one word || Gtae

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Love, that one word - Taeyeon

Without anyone knowing, without even me knowing
I don't know when but you came into my heart.
Tears fell yesterday and tears are falling again today
With my head down low, I'm looking at you.

​​​​​​Without anyone knowing I'm looking at him. He's there, looking handsome and fashionable as always. He's there, sitting with his friends and his new girlfriend. He looks so happy, and it's not me who's making him happy.

Love has come without you knowing
Without any reason, you're in my heart
All alone, I repeat these words as I cry
Do you know?

I'm sitting here, alone as always. My only companion is my sorrow and loneliness. I wanted desperately to move on, but I can't. He's in my heart. I've been repeating myself those words since the day we have said each other goodbye, since he turned around and left. When he closed the door I knew he would never come back.

The one word that you draw inside of me
The one word that is always hidden inside of me
I'm looking at you, I'm always by your side
But I can't say the words I love you.

He's laughing, whispering to his girlfriend's ear. They seem so happy and in love, like we have been until some time ago. He moved on, that's what I've been telling myself, but I don't care. I will always support him, if he needed a shoulder to cry on, I would be happy to cheer him up.

Always be by my side, only you be by my side
Those words are still inside of me
All alone, I repeat these words as I cry
Do you know?

'I am still by your side, Ji.' That's what I really wanted to say. 'Even if you no longer love me, I will always be by your side no matter what.' Even if he's happy again with a woman who is not me.

The one word that you draw inside of me
The one word that is always hidden inside of me
I'm looking at you, I'm always by your side
But I can't say the words I love you.

People around me used to say you should always tell a person how you feel about them. I never really cared about those words. Now I know they were right. I couldn't bring myself to say 'I love you'. I regret it so much, and now it's too late.

Words that my heart says
I love you more than myself
I want to love you.

I want to hold him tight again. Kiss him like I always did when I knew something was bothering him and he needed a distraction. I don't care about myself, the only person I care about is Jiyong, the person I thought was my soul mate. I still think he is, maybe in this life we had to end up with other people, but in the next life we will have our happy ending.

The one word that you draw inside of me
The one word that is always hidden inside of me
I'm looking at you, I'm always by your side
But I can't say the words I love you.

I take courage and I go toward his table. He and the rest of his group stop laughing and look at me, surprised. I can feel the tears starting to form in my eyes, but there's a thing I must say to him. He has to know.

"I'm always by your side. Please, don't forget it."

That's what I say before giving him a small sad smile and leave the room. I'm alone again. "Please, be happy." I murmur to no one.