Loving the Lost

Flower

Jordan's POV

I Wake Up To My Alarm Clock With A Banging Head Ache. I Rub The Sleep Out Of My Eyes At Hit The Stop But On My Phone. The Ringing Quickly Goes Off And I Drag Myself To The Bathroom. I remember I Still Had On The Same Clothes From Last Night. I Turn On The Water And Strip The Clothes Off Down To My Naked Body. My Mind Makes Me Start Wondering About Taylor. Is She Really Dead??? Was It Just A Dream??? I Know I Had A Couple Of Drinks But Was I Drunk And Just Made It All Up. My Thinking Consumes My Whole Shower Time. I Turn The Water Off And Wrap My Towel Around My Torso. After I'm Dress With My Phone In My Hand, I Notice Text Messages, 120 Of Them. I Sigh And Turn The Phone Off I'm Not Wanting To Talk To Nobody Right Now. Once I've Entered The Kitchen I See My Mom And DJ. She Walks Up To Me.

"I'm So Sorry, Jordan. If I Had Of Known That Was What Had Happened I Would Have Never Come At You Like That. "

I Immediately Realize She's Talking About Taylor. So It's True She Is Dead. I Slowly Nod My Head. Kiss DJ On The Forehead, Grab My Keys On the Way To School.

As I Park My Car In The schools Parking Lot. I Get My Backpack And keys. I'm So Used To Being With Taylor Coming To School. Right Now I Feel Like I Can't Function Right Without Her Here. Walking Into The School I Feel Peoples Eyes Stayed On Me And Hear People Whispering Taylor's Name. I Keep My Head Straight. Then I Realize That The Where Her Locker Is There Are Bouquets Of Flowers, Pictures All Of Them With Taylor In Them. There's Even One That I'm In. One Of The Year Book Members Took At Homecoming. It Suddenly Brings Back Memories. To Keep From Crying I Just Continue Walking Til I Get To 1st Period.

1st Period

Okay, Seems Like Everywhere I Go Taylor Finds A Way To Show Up. In Ever Conversation I Have. Like When The Tardy Bell Rang And The Doors Of The Classroom Closed The Teacher Started Off With What Happened With Taylor. Like I'm Tired Of Heating It. I Can't Take It Anymore. My Feelings Are Just Gonna Explode. Today We're Having An Assembly So No 2nd Or 3rd Period Today. As I a Walk Into The Gym I Sit On The Seat With My Name In It. Normally During Assembly's Don't Have Reserved Seats But Hey It Might Be About The Championships Coming Up. But Then The Seat To My Right Says Tiffany. She Doesn't Play Basketball. And I Don't See Chris's Name Either. All Of This Kayos Is Just Making Me Tired. Finally Principal Brown Walks Center Court With Microphone In Hand.

"Good Morning, Students, Staff Parents. This Assembly Was Called To Order In The Memory Of The Beloved Taylor Delaney."

Right Then I Feel My Stomach Squeeze.

"We Have Reserved Seats For Her Boyfriend, Best Friend And Her Mom. Since She a Was Not Spared For Graduation We Have A Cap And Gown That Will Be Given To Her Mother After Her Name Has Been Sown Onto It.

A Bunch Of People Get Up And Talk And Talk About Taylor. Towards The End Of The Ceremony There Was A Flower Giving To Tiffany, Ms. Katie And I. Good More Flowers !!

School Isn't Over But I Really Got Get Away From Here. So I Get In my Car And Drive Home. All The Thought Of Last Night And This Morning Flood Back In My Brain. Things Are Happing To Fast. After College I Was Gonna Ask Her To Marry Me. But Now I'm A Single Parent. When I Get Home I Close My Door And Go To Sleep. Wishing And Praying TomSleep Away My Pain.