silience [jjk]

❀ silience

" So many tears of sadness, uncountable through and through
I know on the other side of them I'll find you "

• listen to the music while reading •

by the window of the second floor, she watched from her room. it was the turning point between summer and fall, the refreshing cool air replacing the hot humidity of late-september heat. the crisp minty morning air trickled into her room through the open window, as the faint sounds of early birds could be heard.

outside, the garden was starting to fill in with people going for walks and enjoying the morning breeze. she smiled to herself, silently wishing she could be one of them too.

a harsh cough racked her fragile figure.

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all day, the only thought on jungkook's mind was her. her.

this was a daily thing. he would wake up, go to work, and his whole day would be taken by thoughts of her--when he would see her again, and if she was alright.

he hoped she was.

that day, jungkook hurried out of his workplace earlier than usual at the notice of an important phone call.

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" heejin-ah. "

the door of the hospital room hastily opened as he entered in a rush. his breathing was heavy, and his voice was laced with concern that filled his eyes at the sight of her.

as if unfazed by the sudden intrusion, heejin only greeted him with a soft smile.

jungkook rushed over to her and with a heavy sigh, pulled her into a gentle embrace, as if he was holding onto fragile glass.

as he let go, he was alarmed at how pale and lifeless she looked compared to the last time he saw her, which was only a couple days ago.

" you...are you okay? " he furrowed his eyebrows after, knowing the answer to his own question.

she laughed quietly, a sound that used to be so melodious to his ears that now just sounded empty and frail.

" you and i both know the answer to that. i don't really think there's a point in asking about it anyways. " her eyes crinkled into small half moons as she smiled.

" i got a call--oh my gosh " as a loud cough racked her frame once more, the amount of concern written on jungkook's face only increased.

" i think i'll be fine for a bit. at least you're here with me, huh? we can make the best of it. " she tried to keep a smile on her face, but in the end, fatigue won out. " i'm sorry for pulling you out of work early. "

jungkook shook his head. " no, it was fine. if it wasn't for that phone call, i wouldn't be here anyways. "

she sighed. " that's right. "

he grabbed her hand and squeezed it tight in his own.

the two sat in silence, enjoying each other's company as the sun climbed lower in the evening sky.

after a while, heejin opened her mouth.

" jungkook-ah," she said with fading strength.

he hummed in response, looking far out at the sunset.

" you know i love you, right? " she looked at him with fond eyes, as he turned his head to look back at her.

" of course, heejin. " his voice was a little strained, and a heavy sadness weighed his shoulders down.

she smiled contently, a look of calm relief settling on her delicate features. " that's good. "

as another soft cough rang through the room, heejin felt fatigue pull her body down, making her shoulders feel tons heavier.

" jungkook-ah... " she called out to him again, this time her voice weaker, quieter.

" yes, heejin? "

" i'm tired. "

a soft sigh escaped her lips.

at her weak reply, jungkook blinked back wetness that started to build up at his eyes.

" heejin-ah, you can rest now. it'll be alright. " tears prickled at the corners of his eyes as jungkook gazed at her. her eyes were droopy, half shut.

" you'll be okay? "

" i will. " that was a lie, and jungkook knew it.

" i'll see you again, jungkook. " a weak smile made its way onto her face.

" i love you " he held back his tears again, watching her eyes droop more and more.

" me too, jungkook. " her eyes closed with a sigh, and her smile didn't leave her face.

" goodnight, heejin," jungkook whispered and finally let a tear slip down his face.

he gripped her slack hand tighter, just as his chest tightened too.

it hurt, and jungkook let himself cry.

fin