The Begin Of An End

8th grade yr

Is the beginning of 8th grade year I was 15 years old it was the beginning to the end of my happiness. I started school happy outgoing and just loving life. But as the year went on I noticed something was terribly wrong I would start getting sad and mad I cry myself to sleep every night I would think about death a lot I just have these dark thoughts all the time and then I seen a razor for the first time. I thought about it what it would feel like just to drag that razor against my skin I thought about all the blood that'll come out. But I didn't do it. Instead I turned away I turn to God but I turned away from God shortly after I was just not the same girl as the beginning of  that year that I was then. End of the year came it hurt to leave my friends it hurts to know that I would be sitting in my  thoughts for three to four months of just thinking.