Friendzoned

Forty-Six: I'm Out Of Her League

I'm Out Of Her League

***Joseph***

My head felt as though it was on fire and that my skull was cracking open when I awoke, lying on the infirmary bed.

I took in the familiar scent and breathed a deep breath.

"How are you feeling?" Madison asked from the side of my bed.

"Like shit." I replied honestly, laughing sarcastically and flinching right after.

The pain was so bad that I couldn't even chuckle, much less laugh.

Madison stooped her head low upon hearing my response.

She was upset enough.

I lifted her head up so she faced me and reassured her, that I was going to be okay and it was going to pass.

But was I going to be okay?

Was this going to pass?

I wasn't entirely sure myself.

Now Sebastian's friends who were disturbingly involved with the incident were suspended and Sebastian had to be sent to court for trial.

It is very likely that we won't be seeing Sebastian for a while.

As much as that made me want to jump for joy at the ecstatic news about Sebastian's trial, I just felt so..dead.

Everything was just..a mess.

The only good thing that came out of it and remained was Madison.

She was the ray of hope amidst all the shit going on, she was the silver lining in my grey depressing clouded world.

Whenever I get close to her or at least spend time with her and I'm overjoyed, it feels like I'm on top of the world, something terrible has to happen and I'm pushed farther away from her.

I just want to be with her.

Have moments that last a lifetime, not brief moments of ecstasy.

I'm broken out of my never ending thoughts when she took a hold of my hand and planted a kiss onto it.

I shivered at her boldness and honesty as she spoke almost in a whisper, "I thought you were gone."

Without thinking, I laced my fingers with hers and gave her an indirect promise, "I'm not going anywhere."

"Neither am I." She whispered, planting another kiss on my hand.

"Joseph I...you need to know something." Madison played nervously with her hair, averting her gaze to our intertwined hands.

"Go on." I encouraged and gave her hands a gentle squeeze.

"I..."

"You?"

"I like you." She looked up and her eyes were locked onto mine.

My heart skipped a beat.

"In..that way." She added, blushing intensely.

I was breathless.

Madison...likes me.

And here I thought she didn't feel the same way I did.

My mouth hung open slightly and all I did was stare into her breathtaking eyes.

Eyes that held a thousand emotions in that moment.

I bit the inside of my cheek, contemplating on what to do. What to say.

I wanted more than anything at that point to tell her how much I liked her too. How much she meant to me. How much she made me smile.

But how could I?

I'm out of her league.

Every time I get close to her, I'm pushed farther away.

I'm never going to stay close with her. I don't deserve her. She deserves someone better. She deserves someone worth her time. She deserves someone who's not a mess.

She deserves someone more than me.

"Madison.." I hesitated and looked at our entwined hands.

It felt so good, so comforting.

So liberating and blissful that someone actually liked me, the four-eyed freak.

But it won't last.

No.

It can't.

We won't last.

"I'm sorry. But I only like you as a friend." I finished and broke from her hand's hold.

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Hey guysss...how ya doing? Good? *ducks and hides from any incoming attacks*

I know I know, Joseph just...Friendzoned Madison.

Ba dum tsss

Okay now I know this chapter was short even shorter than the last chapter. But I absolutely loved how it ended.

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