To The One Who Stole My Heart

Someday

Someday you will quietly sit down, close your eyes, and think about everything you have done up until then. Someday you will look back at all you victories and loses and wonder if it was all worth it. Someday you will remember me.

You will remember how my eyes sparkled when I saw you. The sound of my voice calling out to you saying "Honey I love you!" will make your ears tingle. You'll remember how my smile use to brighten up the room and how everything has been dull since I fell apart. Recalling our first meeting, the sweet scent of my strawberry perfume fills your nose as you picture me standing awkwardly in front of you wearing my blue jeans, old pink dinosaur shirt, and a shy smile on my young and fragile face. 

Thinking of my small quirks, you remember how I use to use my left hand and cover my smile when I was shy or embarrassed. How the delicate shade of pink would show on my cheeks when I blushed. The smile that appeared on my face for every little thing you did just because I had found it adorable.

Suddenly everything goes dark. Memories of our countless arguments appear along side word we can never take back. The times I forced us to break up because I was incapable of handling everything that was happening. The times where I would sit on the floor and cry because you were angry and ignoring me.  Those times where I had gathered the courage to get up and walk out only to have you lock the door after I closed it. 

All the lies come rushing back. All the anger we directed towards each other  that forced us apart.  You call to mind the moment you were given the news that I tried to kill myself.  I was being rushed to the hospital and remained there for 3 days before being moved to a psych hold. You seemed so careful with your words after that incident. My attitude had only worsened after leaving the hospital and you did not know how to help. Slowly, I brought you down with me. The arguments got worse and the trust between us disappeared ,as if we flushed it down a drain. 

Someday you will remember us for what we were. Both our good and bad times and how they mad us what we are.  All the obstacles that were in our way and how they made our bond stronger. 

When that day comes, you will open your eyes and see me there next to you. You'll notice the whites in my hair and the wrinkles on my face. You will see my smile and smile back at me. I will tell you that I love you and once more plant a kiss upon your lips. I hope when this day comes we will have had children to love. I hope we will have grandchildren to love. I hope for many things when this day comes, but that is the in the distant future. Our story still continues and even know we are still young and have much time to grow and nurture our love. Someday you will remember our story and I will be by your side to talk and laugh with you about it. Someday we will both have whites in our hair and wrinkles on our faces. We will have children and grandchildren to love and watch grow. Someday you will realize how much I truly love you.