Stay With Me (boyXboy)

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*Nate*

It had been a few months since I had started Chemotherapy. I felt drained and every time I moved I felt like I would puke. I even started losing my hair again. I didn’t feel like I was getting better. My mum was being optimistic though, she kept telling me that I could fight this. That I will get better. That I will live. But I know it was all just an act I would hear her at night sobbing. I know she was just trying to be strong for me.

Jaxon and Lucas have been great. They make sure I am comfortable. They get me what I need and they hold me when I shake, which is rather frequently.

The day outside was rather sunny. It was nice, but I was too weak to go outside. So Luc, Jax and I sat there watching movie joking every now and then about what the characters were saying. As much as I wanted to I couldn’t shake the feeling that this is what I wanted my last day to be like. Just cuddling with the guys I love.

Then a thought struck me. I didn’t want these two to separate when I am gone. I guess you can say I was the only one not being optimistic. “Guys promise me after I die. That you guys aren’t going to give up on each other.” I blurted out. I didn’t mean to be so blunt… I just wanted to say it and get it over with. They looked at each other and then looked at me. It was like something out of a really cliché comedy. “You aren’t going to die Nate.” Jaxon said nonchalantly. “Plus we aren’t gonna ever split up… it’s the three of us for life man.” Lucas chimed in.

I liked how they were trying to make me feel better. But it wasn’t doing much. I was starting to feel colder so I snuggled up to Jaxon and pulled Lucas closer. It seemed to do the trick.

I was growing tired and I was comfy so I closed my eyes. I had the best dream. My hair was back, the colour of my skin was vibrant and not a grey colour like it had been. It was just a normal Saturday and we were having one of our sleepovers again. It was like we were 15 again. I smiled. That was the best time.

Then everything started to seem further away. Sounds were muffled and lights were dimming… then there it was… darkness.