2.0 (Jamilton)

six

Tw: self harm, suicide mention, blood and negative thoughts

Alexander's pov:

After the guys left
"Why did you agree with them?!" Thomas asked "What do you mean?" "I mean, why did you agree to go with them!" "Don't you want me to remember my memories?" "Yes! No! I don't know! I want my Alexander back, but I don't want to replace him with-with you"

"Thomas you make me so confused! First you want me to remember but then, out of nowhere, you want me to be gone! I don't know how Alexander delt with you! The only thing we do is argue and argue, and I don't want to do that anymore more because I-I" "You what! Huh? Why don't you want to argue anymore, because you think it hurts my feelings?! Well guess what, I don't care about my feelings!"

"Because I love you!"

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Oh no

"I'm leaving" "W-Where are you going?" "Doesn't matter, I'm just leaving"

After that he took his keys and left, right out the door.

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What the hell was I thinking? Telling him 'I love you' out of nowhere! Oh god. He's probably going to kill himself. Should I go after him? I don't even know where he left to! Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Ok, I need to calm down. If I was Thomas Jefferson where would I go? Well, the first place he tried to show me was the park, so maybe he's at the park. Who am I kidding, what kind of logic is that? Well its worth a shot.

Thomas pov:

"Did Alexander like the park?"

A small itch was on my arm

"What was Alexander like?"

It started to itch more and more as I kept remembering.

"I can see why the real Alexander killed himself"

It felt like my arm was on fire

"Well I mean, you aren't giving up on me, your giving up on him"

I started scratching my arm

"Because I love you!"

Scratching as hard as I can, until blood started to drip

I'm so sorry Alexander, I'm so so so sorry. I couldn't save you in time. I'm also sorry to Al, I was treating you like a pice of shit.

I was in  the park. Easiest place to find. I guess I wanted to be found, but at the same time I wanted to be left alone. I just wanted to curl up in Alexanders arms and tell him all of the things that went wrong. But I can't do that anymore because he's gone. Why did he do this to me? He was my everything, my world, my space my stars. I know that sounds cheesy, but it's true.

I couldn't ignore the elephant in the room forever though. Al loves me. Al loves me. My god. What do I do? The only reason I still have him here is because he looks like Alexander. I don't love him.

Do I?

I hear leaves crunching, and sticks cracking. Someone's here. I look in all directions trying to figure out where it's coming from and who it is. Looking around for a few more seconds, I see Al running towards me.

Great, just what I needed.

"Oh Thomas don't scare me like that! I was looking around everywhere for you. Are you okay?" He said, motioning towards my bleeding arm. "I'm fine, I just scratched my arm against a tree while I was running" lie "W-Why did you leave?" "Cause I wanted time alone" "O-Oh so do you want me to go?" Yes "No, just sit down with me" I pat the grass right next to me, motioning him to sit down.

"You know, Alexander zodiac sign was a Capricorn" "Is that so?" I nodded my head a little "What's yours?" "I'm an Aries" "What do the zodiac signs mean?"

We spent the rest of the night talking about zodiac signs and other stuff, that is until we had to go home.

Today wea an event full day.

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A/N Hehe hehe (I'm tired it's like 2:31 or something like that when I finished)