Bad Reputation

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I shake my head " what ?". He had a hard expression " I'm sorry but were done ". I laugh " are you joking ". He gulps , " no look just please go ". I can feel my heart break and starting to blur my eyes. " but why " , I say trying to take his hand in mine but he takes it back, I couldn't believe it , my heart clenched. " Rowan go I don't want you here anymore ". I just wanted him to say it was a joke. " why brandon , just tell me why". He closed his eyes and looks at me " because you deserve better " , he said with his voice raised . I take his hands " Brandon I love you , you cant just fucking tell me you love me then leave ". He puts my hands down " look I'm sorry but that's how life is " . I wipe more tears away and take my bag and go downstairs. Thankfully there wasn't anybody down stairs. I walk home sobbing and go to my room. I can't believe that just happened. I take my make up off and shower. I lay on my bed , tomorrow is school how fun.
1 week later - still miserable
A week later after that-
I wake up and get ready. I put on my jeans and a black shirt with some nikes. I head to walk to school. I look at my phone and I still have him as my lockscreen. Just looking at it makes me want to cry but I'm not going to. I see brandon walking a few feet in front of me. I don't know if I should go talk to him or not. My feet just leaded me to him. " Brandon ", he freezes. " rowan". I gulp and go in front of him " I- I I umm ". Nothing came out of my mouth . " Rowan were going to be late", he starts walking fast and I follow behind him . He bites his lip " Rowan let's talk another day ". I scoff " okay let me get this straight one day you tell me you love me then the next you don't " . He sighs " Rowan just stop ", he grabs my hand and takes me with him without saying a word that's how we get to school. I look at him and i just want to kiss Him. I turn the other way and go to class. Class was so boring and I didn't want to go to the next class to see Brandon. I get there and I see him on his phone. I sit beside him , but he doesn't look up at me. Our teacher let us choose seats about a month ago so I chose next to him how smart right. " okay class get your supplies and make the children's book. I go get the stuff and Brandon come with too. " what color shall we get ?". I look up at his eyes , such a beautiful blue. He didn't answer . " alright no answer so I guess take the light blue , such a wonderful color that just looking at it makes you fall in love right ?". I take the stuff and place it on the desk. I start writing while he makes the pictures " Rowan? ". I hm him. " let's still be friends yea ?". I nod " okay ". I see a message pop up on his phone and I'm still his lockscreen . I smile and finish writing. " our book came out good " He nods , and Devin came up to me " Hey Rowan can you help me study today after shool for my science test ?". I look up at him " sure at the library? ". He nods " thanks". I smile as he goes away " why are you smiling? " Brandon asks clearly annoyed by the interaction. " no reason ". He tenses his jaw and looks over the book. The bell rings and I head to the library. I sit down and we instantly start studying. " haha rowan I actually get this now thanks ". I high five him " now you will pass ". He smiles " Rowan can I tell you something ?". I nod " I'm gay ", I look at him " I'm glad you came out ", we talk more about it and he's in a good state. I hug him and we giggle and I leave to my locker. I hear a thump next to me. I close my locker ," Brandon what the heck ". " so we break up and now your all smiles and laughs with a guy ?". He says with a tense face but his voice is firm. " oh so you're spying on me ?". He shakes his head " I was actually in detention and passed by ". I roll my eyes " okay well whatever I do is now not your problem ", I say. He scratches his neck " just let's go I'm taking you home ". I put my book in my bag and walk the other way. Who does he think he is?