Spin The Bottle? More Like Spin My Life.

spin the bottle?

Richie P.O.V

Here we are, sitting in the middle of bills living room playing spin the bottle with the losers and a few other people from our school, basically it was the losers Club, Max, Lucas, Dustin, Will and El. I didn't really want it to land on Eddie.. Ok I'm not going to lie I was actually happy it did. There are moments in my life where I question a lot of things... more or less I cover it up with sarcastic and quote on quote funny jokes but right now In This Moment, I'm being serious. Eddie just look me in the eye he looked... Scared? We both slowly leaned in and as our lips were about to connect... I couldn't do it I got up and ran. I ran to the nearest bathroom turn around a locked door sat in the corner and I did something I haven't done in a long time... I cried... I just couldn't do it I don't know why but I couldn't something was holding me back, fear Maybe? Maybe I was afraid of the losers and everybody else finding out that I was gay. I wasn't going to tell then... ever. I wanted it to land on 11 or Bev that way I wouldn't have to face this but... Fate hates me. I just want to be happy. why am I like this? my life is over and I can't leave this bathroom, its my life now. I heir a knock at the door I don't say anything.

"Richie? Are you ok? I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable." its Eddie.  my sob's become louder as he makes it sound like he was more uncomfortable then I was. "Richie I am real-" he must have heard me sob. "Richie are you crying?! Richie I'm so sorry, pleas let me in!" I slowly get up and open the door, I then quickly sit down in the position I was in. He walks in and sits next to me. Well me and Edds have been friends for a long time so he knows how to comfort me. All he dose is take of my glasses and hug me as I cry into is shoulder. this is why I'm afraid of him finding out I'm gay, I don't want to ruin our friendship. he's so sweet and kind and I really don't want to lose that. 

option 1: tell Eddie Richie is hella gay.

option 2: DON'T tell Eddie Richie is hella gay.