false hope; joshler [✔]

December 1st

A/N: okay so when i was using my calender to see what the date would be when Joshua would start writing letters again the date was LITERALLY ON TYLER'S BIRTHDAY. i swear to God i didn't plan this omg i'm screaming

Four months.
It took me four months to collect myself.
I'm sorry that it took that long.
I didn't mean to take that long. I thought I would only be gone for a few weeks, not four months.

While I was gone I tried to drink it away, I tried to dance it away, I tried to keep myself busy, but I slept it away.
After trying to fix myself up I realized that I wouldn't be able to do this on my own so I started seeing a therapist.

I'm glad I did because now I feel so relieved.
I didn't visit you while I was gone either.
I was afraid that if I saw you while I was recovering I'd relapse.
But now that I'm better, I'm gonna go visit you.
Oh and by the way,
happy birthday.
Love, Joshua.