false hope; joshler [✔]

February 1st

A/N: hi. i just wanted to clarify that since Tyler is dead now, Joshua won't be writing any more letters. but since i still have one more part of this book to write it's going to remain in first pov. that's all, have a good day

Today's the day of Tyler's funeral. He's been dead for 52 days and I still can't believe it's happened.
I really did believe he would wake up and fall in love with me.
Ever since his death everyone has been so nice to me.
I don't like whenever people do this but I don't really care anymore at this point.
I'm just glad that his funeral is small.
It's just gonna be me and his parents.
We were the closest people to him so we only thought it would be appropriate for us to attend.
After his mother has given a short speech about Tyler and how he lived a good life we all went up to his casket. We all took one last look at him before I took out a pile of letters with dates on them.
His parents gave me a confused look at first until they had realized what they were.
I felt a tear run down my cheek as I placed the pile of letters inside Tyler's casket with him.
His mom let out a choked out sob and clung onto Tyler's father while the cemetery workers closed his casket and lowered him down into the earth below us.
At this point we were all a crying mess.
I just hope that the letters will go up to heaven with him so he can read them all and understand that I really do love him.
I don't think I'll ever get over Tyler or the way he made me feel.

the end.