Am I really hurting her
Was he right about us
Does he really know what's best for her
Am I actually making it worse
Maybe I should leave
I probably am just making things worse for her
I probably hurt her so much
How...?
How do I always manage to do this to people..
I don't even mean to do it
I'm so sorry for doing this to you.
He was right, I'm hurting you. I'm bad for you. I should leave before I hurt you more. I don't help you
You like me and I'm not ready and it's only making things worse
I feel like I'm spiralling downwards and just falling into darkness with no way to stop myself and it's like my depression is just trying to swallow me whole and suffocate me and I feel like I can barely breathe all the time and oh my god I need help
I need help so bad
But it scares me
I'm so scared
All the time...
I'm constantly paranoid
I feel like I can never truly relax
I'm always just so terrified of fucking up that I can't be comfortable
I can't tell you how many times I've stayed up late thinking and thinking of all the possible ways I've already fucked this up and talking to him today only made those thoughts so much worse
It's like my own dark, twisted thoughts are trying to just completely drown the rest of my brain and I can't make it stop....
YOU ARE READING
Thoughts.
PoetryThis is not a story, this isn't a happy fan-fiction. this is me looking for somewhere to write down and post the thoughts I can't/don't want to say out loud. this is definitely copying what my friend Tyler (@darkestdaes) is doing but oh well, i like...
