Me and my friend always end up fighting each other. The fights are never physical but mostly cyber. I can never believe that she thinks that her problems are worse then mine when they maybe bad but mine are too. What's sad is that katrina never realized that I was always there for her. She said that it was my fault taht she never called me for help. Honestly how was I supposed to know that she needed my help? I had no idea that she never needed me at her worst moments. But what she thinks is that she has it worse than me when she doesn't. Katrina's life may be bad but mine is too. I tried my best and hardest to be a good friend to her but she just never saw it. Some times I wonder why I was ever her friend then I always remember that I was always there for her and she was always there for me. Sometimes I just wish that she would see how bad I hurt but of course why would she care? We always fight and after each fight I'm the one who always feels gultiy. But what confuses me most is that she never apologizes to me or feels the gulit I always feel. So I guess I just should'nt be her friend anymore. That I should just forget about her and leave her alone. Yes I always told her that I would never leave her alone but now I will. She doesn't need me anymore and she never had needed me. She pretty much just used me to make her friend cierra get mad at me for nothing. You know I'm tired of being just a toy doll. Now I'm taking control of my own fights and everything. Now she was just a bad dream of mine. Hopefully if she ever needs anyone and cierra isn't there to help her that she knows that i'm not an option to ask for help because I will just tell her to ask someone else for help because I'm done with you. Help yourself other people shouldn't be fixing your broken heart getting their hands cut up just trying to fix you like I did. My hands are covered in scars just from trying to fix you and myself. Now you can fix yourself because I wont do it for you anymore. I feel bad for who ever has scars on their hands just from fixing you because you can't do it yourself. Honestly you guilt trip people into feeling bad for you. Well it used to work on me well now not anymore. You can fix yourself katrina I know you can. Everyone else shouldn't have to get hurt trying to help you. I know that for a fact that when I tried to help you you always turned me away and never let me help you which hurt me but what do you care? Thats right you don't care and I don't think that you ever did care if you hurt me because you did it almost 24/7 now I'm fed up with you. I'm done trying to help you. I don't want to keep getting hurt. If you feel gulity reading this well that's not my problem because I wasn't the one who didn't notice a true friend just standing in front of you. I have my own problems to deal with and your'e not one of them. Have someone feel bad for you princess because I won't feel it anymore. If you hate me after you read this that's ok because the truth hurts girly and nobody likes hearing it but sometimes it's what you need to hear even if it's not from someone you trust. See you one of these days and hopefully you've changed because I sure have these past two years. Bye katrina
