The Pain

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The Pain

Copyright 2014

Yuichikun2014

Yuan POV

I'm just following to where my feet will drag me to. I don't care where as long as this feeling inside me won't go away. I don't where will I be anymore.

Everything that happened flashbacks in my head. I just can't stop thinking about it no matter what force will I do to myself, it won't just stop.

[YESTERDAY]

"Mahal kita Xie ! Mahal na Mahal kita higit pa sa inaakala mo ! Mahal kita hindi dahil sa kaibigan kita --- Mahal kita Xie !" sabi ko sa kanya habang naluluha na ako sa sakit na nararamdaman ko

"Pero mali toh, Yuu ! Maling mali !"

"Kasalanan ko ba ? Kasalanan ko ba kung ikaw ang minamahal ng puso ? Kung ikaw ang pinili nito ? Kasalanan ko ba kung umiibig ako sa isang taong may relasyon na sa iba and WORST ! Pareho pa kaming babae ? Kasalanan ko ba yun Xie ?"

Yes ! I am a girl who had fallen inlove to a girl. Actually, I'm just a HOPELESS ROMANTIC. Falling inlove to someone who has already someone whom she will love forever. Such a stupid love, right ?

And we are, right now, at the rooftop of our school main building --- I called her here for me to confess my love even though I already know that I got no chance at all because I am already late.

And what I hate the most about myself is that even though I already know that I won't be having any percent of chance at all ---- I didn't prepare myself for this incredible --- unbearable feeling ------ THE PAIN

"But you already know that I have a boyfriend right ? That I already have Aki. Your the first one to know about it since you're my bestfriend. Yuu, I'm really sorry," she said with a ---- with that look

Xiesha and Aki are my childhood friends and Xie is also my bestfriend. She told me about them just a week ago and I was like ---- a statue I guess, when she told me about them --- Dating. Its like ... I turned into pieces --- Broken Pieces and the world has come to its end

I turned my back for her not see this shameless face of mine crying over this thing while bidding goodbye to her.

I was walking down the road, passing many things --- vehicles, shops and people --- couples ...

Yeah ! It really is a pain --- pain in the chest. Its like, my life has been taken away from me. Like a lost child in a big crowd. Like a Star Player that had lose for the first time. Like the world is falling on me. That is what I am feeling right now.

Luckily, it rained. What is so good about the rain when your feeling down ? Well, you can cry everything you had in your chest without them noticing it and that is what I am doing now. I cry everything --- the loneliness, the loss, and the pain.

Morning came. The sun has rise. I stop to look everything around me and realize that I am, here, at the seashore. Looking at the wide sea --- feeling the cool breeze --- watching the big waves --- it is so relaxing *smiles* giving me another meaning of life .... giving me peace of mind.

It is so hard --- hard to endure this pain alone but whenever I think of her --- whenever I think of myself falling inlove to her -- it makes me smile. Yeah, she might not love me but it is my pleasure to love her. She didn't said anything that I should love her anyway so I should bear this feeling.

"Sabi ko na nga ba ee, dito lang kita matatagpuan *smiles*" i turned my back and saw her -- the girl that I had fallen inlove

"Yuu, please ? Wag mo nang pahirapan pa ang sarili mo. You can still find someone there naman ee. Someone who is better than me. Someone who will love you. I love Aki and I don't want him to leave me neither myself," she said with the same look. Now, I've decided ----

"Aanhin ko naman sila kung ang hinahanap-hanap ng mga mata ko ay ang presensya mo ? Kung ang laging bukang-bibig ko ay ang pangalan mo ? Kung ang laman ng isip ko ay ang mga galaw mo ? Kung ang tinitibok ng puso ko ay ang pagkatao mo ? Aanhin ko ang better Xie ?" sabi ko sa kanya --- I just want to know what she will answer HAHAHA

"...................." tahimik lang siya XD

"HAHA don't worry Xie. I love you and all I want for you is to be happy and I know that you are happy with him so ------------- I'm letting you go *smiles* Maybe it's wrong for me to love you more each day" yes ! I set her free Haha XD

She smiled and hug me --- I'm happy that I made her smile

"KILL THAT GIRL !" an unknown young lady shotued at her gunman who is pointing his gun at Xiesha. He pulled the trigger and -----

"Lets get out of here already before the police will come," then the gunman drives their car

"Yuu ! Yuan ! Oh pleaseee *sobs* SOMEBODY ! HELP US ! PLEASEEE *sobs* ! HELP US ! Yuu, *sobs* hang in there Yuu,"

I turned my back to protect her and I was the one who got shot ---

"Xie *trying to smile*cough* I ---- I L---" I want to tell her those words

"Oh c'mon Yuu. Don't talk, pleaseeee ! Don't *cries* SOMEONE ! PLEASEEEE ! HELP !!!"

"Xi-Xiesha, *cough cough* I --- I L- Love ---- I Love You *smiles*"

"Yuu ! Please, get a hold of yourself ! Pleaseeee ! *cries* Yuu!" I already told her what I want to say. Now, I think, I can go *smiles*

"Yuu ! Pleaseee ! Don't close your eyes yet ! Yuan ! *cries*" I lifted my right hand to wipe her tears. I hate it when she cries. I hate it ------------------------------------------------

"YUANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries*"

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I am feeling the cool breeze of the air, watching the flowers as it sways with the wind, looking at the butterflies that flies to the flowers, listening to the birds as they sing

"Atleast ! Even to my last breath, I got the chance to tell her what I feel,"

[THE END]

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[a/n] Hello Minna =D HAHA Di ako marunong magsulatng story, I swear pero sana ma-appreciate niyo XD Comment naman kayo kahit wag na mag-vote XD Sabihin niyo yung gusto niyong sabihin especially sa pagsusulat ko ng story para mag-improve naman kung meron man XD lalo na sa pag narrate and expressing emotions. mahina ako jan XD Haha

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