REMINGTON is the name given to me by my parents. I actually got my name from a brand of shotgun. When I was born, my mother cannot believe that she has me as his son. I was too dark like an aeta. My mother cannot say a name for me so she asked my father to name me. There it was; my father had a gun with a well-known brand. By the time the nurse asked for my name, he uttered the brand name. There it was; I was then called Remington.
Guns are actually made of hard pieces of metal. In Chinese, my name REMINGTON [Rui Meng Xian] can mean as a sharp fierce metal. This literal meaning of my name in Chinese actually describes who I am. I am quick, quite intelligent, violent, serious, and hardhearted.
In the past 16 years, for me, life and living is an agony but through my sharp and fierce mind, it turned into a life of dreams, plans, and goals to be realized.
I never tried to dig into myself deeply before. It is too difficult for me to know myself more. The more I think of where I was and of what things I have done, always ends up to self-pity. Knowing myself is a challenge. Expressing myself in words is a suffering. I am often misunderstood by persons around me for even to myself, often, I am lying. I always pretend as if I am the happiest man on earth but inside my heart, soul, and mind, I seemed to have carried the world for a very long time.
I am the second child in the family. As a serious and a very deep person, I do not have a good relationship with my siblings and they do not like me but I am doing everything for them. As a result, I grew up as a loner and had loved it. I always prefer to be alone; although, I know that life is even more beautiful with someone who would accompany me until my last days of life.
It was because of my bitter past that has made me who I am today, a very hardhearted man. I analyze things too deeply. My life, I analyzed it already and I known that all I have been through had a purpose. I has set plans and goals for my future and I am always sure that I can have them all accomplished. To make sure of it, I have bound myself to a contract for future employment. I always persist to attain my goals for there in my success, I know I can find my happiness.
Life for me is too difficult. I came from a broken family with a drunkard father and a sickly mother but ended up having myself enrolled in a private baptist university. My mother died when I was in first year college so I support myself alone in my studies. Thanks for those people who are kind. They have helped me along the way although I have an unpleasing attitude at home especially doing home chores. Some says, I am intelligent but for me I just know how to make use of things around me and that is being resourceful. I was raised as a very independent person so I never ask help as long as I can find a solution for a problem, alone. According to some of my friends, I am a good adviser for I am experienced. Ask me, I am willing to listen. This is me.
