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My name is Heaven. Heaven Mania Ruskin. Translated that would mean, Paradice, Death, Little Rose. I have a twin sister named Perdita Zoey Ruskin (we usually just call her Zoey though), Her name translates means Lost, Life, Little Rose. Then have an older brother named Tristian Anubis Ruskin translated would mean, Sad, God Of Death, Little Rose. and last of all we have a little sister named Delilah Isis Ruskin translated means Weak, Protcter of Dead. 

As you can see our family is full of death. Which is true.  After my little sister Delilah was born my father, who was a heavy drinker, got into to a car heavily intoxicated, and crashed killing himself, and Delilah. My mother was devestated. She was horrified that our father had died. Yet when she heard the crash killed little 2 month old Delilah, I remember she cheered and partied. She said it was one less mouth to feed. and she couldn't wait until the rest of us were gone.

I was only 6 years old. I couldn't comprhend what had happened. My brother who was 13 at the time, and my sister Zoey, hid in a closet, We were scared. We didn't know what had happened.

After that, the three of use stuck together.  Until I was about 10 years old. That was when my brother started to become really distant from us. He was always gone and he wouldn't tell us where he goes. and because of it, our mother became abusive toward us. hitting us, smacking us around. She even locked us in a closet for 3 days.  We couldn't tell any one either. She said if we did, that she would hurt us, worse than she usually did.  We were terrified. and my brother didn't even seem to notice. until i told, and i probably shouldn't have.

         because i regreted it right after i told him