Greetings. My name is Lainey, and I guess this is sort of like a journal thing? Well, except for the fact that I WON'T put EVERYTHING that I'm going through on here. I got the idea to do this from my friend, Scott. My life is pretty boring, but if you want to read this, knock yourself out. No, this isn't for attention, and if you comment a bunch of negative crap on here, clearly you're the one who wants attention :)) I don't care what you think of me, so commenting crap on this isn't going to hurt me, so don't waste your time.
4/20/14
Wow okay where to begin? So basically, I feel like 99.99% of the people I interact with hate me and find me annoying. I'm never anyone's first choice, and it sucks. I get ignored and put on a shelf all the time. Maybe I just expect too much from people. Maybe I expect them to be these kind-hearted, caring things that will never grow bored of me. "What a treacherous thing to believe a person is more than a person." - John Green. Maybe I'm just that interesting of a person, or maybe I'm just too messed up for people to handle. No one wants to be friends with that girl. I try so hard to get people to like me, but in the end, I just seem to end up driving them away. I would love to know what about me is so unbearable so that I may fix it and actually make people happy. The worst part is that now I've grown numb to this feeling. You know how if you get hit/slapped/flicked/etc. in the same place over and over again, it just grows numb? Well I guess that's how I feel about being a second choice. It just happens so much that I'm used to it, so I almost feel nothing. I just wish that there was someone out there who was afraid of losing me.
