Makeup remover wipes S.M.

Chapter 34

Aaliyah's 24th birthday

My c section is completed and as I dress myself for my return home we wait to meet the babies. Shawn wasn't even allowed to see them while it was being done so he's anxious to see them now, they said something about a surprise so our parents have been in and out trying to figure it out, Aaliyah however hasn't left the room. She's so excited to meet them which I think is really nice, she genuinely made me book it today so she could have all of her nephews born in her birthday. "And Shawn said he only wanted two," her red roll.

"I love them all a lot, but I would've liked a smaller family." I hit his chest. "Once the triplets came I fell in love with all of them though, and more sounded nice, and then we got seven and I just don't want any more." He chuckles and I giggle giving him a kiss.

"We can cuddle again," I smile he holds me softly while I sit on the bed. "And you can carry me around." I giggle swinging my feet.

"Mr. Mendes," his oncologist waved him over. "I'm sorry to disturb it shouldn't take long." He waves Shawn away while I sit waiting for the babies nervously anxiously they're gonna be beautiful. They get wheeled in and my heart just melts. They're just as beautiful as I'd imagined and as I see a little pink blanket things get a little sweeter.

"I've got a niece," Aaliyah squeals staring at her touching her little hand and fixing her long hair. "You are the best thing that's ever happened to Shawn, and I love you so much, and you gave me their beautiful nephews and another amazing niece." She hugs me tightly. "I love you," she mumbles again looking towards the bits. We've chosen Eros, Davi, Alessandro, Jamison, Braxton, and Drew, and our baby girl that I've always wanted to call Aoife meaning warrior princess which is a name I absolutely adore.

"Look at them," Shawn voice sounds off but I'd rather not make a comment he was talking to an oncologist so bad thing could be happening and I think I should give him time. Regardless my arms wrap around him and I kiss his cheek sweetly.

"You might not want to talk now, but when you feel like talking, I'm right here for you." I grab his hand and he nods.

"Thank you, thank you for everything," he smiles looking at the little cribs. "Thank you for carrying all of these babies for me, thank you for putting up with my lying and me in general, thank you for everything you do for me. Thank you for loving me, thank you for staying with me regardless of what I do. I love you angel, and I was always only love you." His lips touch mine but as they do he falls, I catch him by the hand but I struggle to hold him and I lean him on my bed.

"Aaliyah get a nurse," I check his pulse and heartbeat which are still there but I'm not sure what else I could do, I brush my hand over his head taking away his last bit of hair. "I'm so sorry," I can't help but feel responsible for his cancer and every time I think about it I get sad. I don't know why and I don't know what I could've done but I feel like it was all me.

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As I enter with Aoife Shawn scrolls through his phone. She was the first to get her shots even though she's the baby, and just as Shawn and I had hoped no machines. They're tiny babies, but no machines only a couple more hours maybe another day. "Hi baby," I smile after she gives a whine. Shawn's head jolts up at me but he cries quickly after.

"You're not supposed to be here," he mumbles letting some tears fall. "Please leave," I give him a pout moving back a few feet closer to the door.

"Shawn if I did something to hurt you I'm really," he stops me with a head shake.

"Leave," he points and I nod exiting quickly. I brush a finger against my baby girls cheek.

"I'm sorry you didn't get to see him, and you were getting a bath when he got to visit." I lay her in her crib and myself in the hospital bed. I curl in a ball of sadness, Aaliyah and the kids along with her parents have left, I told them she'd get to come back and meet the babies, she could even stay over night with us if she felt like it.

"Hello Mrs. Mendes," she smiles walking in. "We're just gonna bring them back now," I nod watching all of my boys away. All of my identical boys and their baby sister get rolled off and I can no longer see them. We made the trip all the way to the next ward so we could see her daddy, he didn't even wanna meet her.

"I'm really not supposed to be up and you can't get close to me but I needed to meet her," he looks around the room but the hope in his eyes falls as does his head once he sees they're gone.

"I brought her to your room, you just wouldn't let me," he nods cutting me off.

"Things are gonna change princess," he nods a little but very sadly. "I'm gonna be here a few days," as will I but I won't tell him like I always would I'll wait for him to finish talking. "And I can't cuddle you anymore, and you have no idea how sorry I am because I know how much you've wanted cuddles for so long, and I'm not allowed to carry you, probably ever again." He's in tears as am I, I just hope he's ok. "I can't hug you princess and it kills me inside and I know I asked you for a wedding," he throws me a box. "But we can't have it any more." Inside sits a beautiful ring, a beautiful teddy bear ring encrusted with diamonds and everything. "I was gonna give it to you when we married but I can't anymore."

"What about kisses, do I get those?" I smile hopefully trying to stop the tears I couldn't stop from falling.

"No contact, no hugs or kisses, no cuddles, I'm not even allowed to sleep with you, I-I got Justin to stay for a while so you could cuddle with him," his tears stop but the water in his eyes accumulates. "I really don't mind."

"I wanna hug you so badly right now," I squeeze my knees.

"Just pretend darling, that's all we can do now is pretend."