I know you'll never read this, but I want to say something: thank you. You must be tired of hearing me repeat that, right? I wish one day I could tell you everything I feel, no matter how clichéd it may be, be calm, it will be more cliché still.
I was afraid, before you, I would die. I died every day a little more, I felt that it was suffocating me, that I deserved the darkness, that strong pain in my chest, that solitude, despite being surrounded by people, seemed to be my destiny. I killed myself without realizing it, everything was falling apart and I really believed that everything would fall. But you showed up, you smiled, I remember as if it was yesterday, the first time I saw your beautiful "square smile." Everything bad in my life disappeared. Your smile, your beautiful smile. Kim Taehyung, I fell in love with you, you saved me, unintentionally, without any intention, without knowing it. You held out your hand and managed to get me out of the hole in which I had been buried, you gave me reason to get out of bed, made me believe there are things worth doing. I trusted you blindly and you became the most beautiful moment of my life. And you did not even know it. I'll never be able to thank you for that, I do not even know how to do it, funny, right? I will never be able to thank you for making me the happiest girl in the world. And you just smiled.
