The cancer came back and I have stage four leukaemia, any contact with my baby girl could kill me, and I'm really lucky that her hug and kisses yesterday didn't. She kissed a piece of paper for me, they sterilized it and the piece of paper is mush and her lipstick mark is gone but it's all I can have as a kiss from my love. She stays with the babies and I stay far away. They go home today and I was supposed to wheel them out with her but I can't. I can't even hold her hand any more and walking down the isle will be an impossible task. I worry the stress might get to her and our babies will be taken away from us when she goes back to what she's worked so hard to get away from.
"Mr. Mendes," the doctor smiles after being sterilized he enters. "I have a surprise for you." He smiles while Reese walks in with Aaliyah and all of our babies. "They've been sterilized and kissing is not permitted but I'll allow hugs and you can see the babies." He nods. My arms open and they both fall into them I squeeze them tighter than I probably ever have. Kat has been so curious, she texts me constantly but I wouldn't tell her.
"Stage four," I mumble into her ear. "Leukaemia," I go in for the kiss but she pulls herself back right out of my arms. I wasn't allowed the kiss anyways. Aaliyah stays against my chest but Kat looks notified. Regardless she moves a strap on the carrier. "Hi," I smile at the baby girl that just woke up. "Hi," I wake a little. She's really a tired little girl but her head is covered in hair thick curly locks. "Do you think she collected what I lost?" She touches my head and only now do I notice theirs.
"Since yesterday," she mumbles looking at the doctor who signals them away. "If I'd known that would be my last kiss," she shakes her head disappointed in herself. She hands the doctor another piece of paper one lipstick print in the middle tears stain the paper around it. Aaliyah stays in my arms and I hold her like my own.
"Bye Reese," she waves hanging on to me. She just doesn't want to admit the current events, she's one of my best friends, she has been since we were little. We're really close and I've always wondered if she'd like my girlfriend. They love each other so much it's so amazing for me to see them get along. If Aaliyah didn't like her I would've dumped her just like Nathan would do for Ekatrina, Reese. I don't feel worthy of calling her that, I married Reese and I'll stay married to Reese I'll never marry Ekatrina but Reese is one hell of a girl. She's the most considerate sweetest girl you every did meet.
"You have to go too baby," I run my hand over her head and she sighs. "Be nice to her?" I watch Reese struggle pushing the strollers and her teary eyes make nothing easier. "And help her out whenever you can." I plead. "Take good care of yourself, and stay out of trouble." I shake my head a little kissing her forehead.
"I want a kiss," she sniffs looking at me. "I-I've been worried for a whole two days and I'm so mad at you for not telling me but I love you more than my own life and if I'm allowed I really just want one kiss." She turns to the doctor.
"Nothing, nothing at all," the doctor shakes his head. "I already let you in and I think that might've been a mistake, visiting time is over please exit the room and this ward." I can't even look her in the eyes. I made to many promises and all of them will be broken in a matter of minutes.
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To Shawn: she really liked you
I've been texting her all night. I need her around or I can't sleep.
From Shawn: what'd you name them
To Shawn: I'll go in order
To Shawn: Alessandro, Eros, Jamison, Braxton, Drew, Davi, and our little warrior princess Aoife.
From Shawn: beautiful I'm sorry I couldn't help name them
To Shawn: I thought of you when I did :)
From Shawn: and I'm sorry I couldn't really hold your hand a lot because the doctors wouldn't let me.
To Shawn: you held my hand after
From Shawn: and I'm sorry I promised I'd cuddle and carry you only to brake that promise a few hours later
To Shawn: I don't need those things
She lies to me all of the time so I'll feel better. She can't sleep unless she's in someone's arms. She can't reach things on the top shelves so I've always lifted her up. She's so sweet, and kind. I feel bad for what I'm doing to her. I'm putting her through so much, I'm putting them all through a lot. My poor girls are probably gonna have to learn to live without me and I've already been told about how Skylar can't stand not being around me and our baby of laughter has been depressed.
From Shawn: you did for ten years
To Shawn: I'll learn to live without them
From Shawn: I won't, I'm always gonna feel empty without you in my arms
To Shawn: don't focus so much on me, so what we can't sleep together, we'll be fine separately as long as you get better we can always rely on having that time together.
From Shawn: baby its stage four, I don't think I have a chance
To Shawn: I'm tired, and I'm lonely, I'm sad and so is our baby girl who won't sleep. Can I call you so she can see you?
From Shawn: would you? Please I wanna see her smiling face
"Hi princess," I gasp a little bit. Everyone else in the hospital is asleep or not on this floor so my light being on is unusual. "Hi baby girl," she claps her hands quickly and I give her a giggle. "No more tears," I point and she nods firmly. "Non at all," I declare and she mocks my action.
"Will I get kisses on our anniversary?" Her voice is weak and depressed.
"I hope, I'd like kisses too but we'll have to see." I trace her body imagine on the phone screen. It makes me cry which makes them both cry as well. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry," I wipe my tears sniffing constantly. "I love you,"
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Makeup remover wipes S.M.
FanfictionThe sequel to Makeup S.M. Reese still hides, she won't come out of her shell he's trying really hard and maybe he could end up her makeup remover.
