After Dunkirk

Chapter 9

"Im what? No, I can't be. We used protection."

"That doesn't always mean your 100% protected, there are many factors that can interfere with the pill. Have you taken any antibiotics or anything lately?"

Then I suddenly remember.

When I was sick a while back, I remember taking some antibiotics but it never even crossed my mind of something like this happening.

"Oh my god. But wait are you sure? Maybe there was a mistake or something?" I say.

"Oh trust me miss, this was no mistake. I'm pretty certain that your pregnant."

I bury my head into my hands and the water works start up once again.

How can this be happening?

I'm pregnant with someone's baby who doesn't even want anything to do with me right now. And even more so, how am I going to raise a child especially at a time like now.

This whole situation is just really fucked and I honestly don't know what I'm going to do.

When I get home, all I want to do is take a nap. I figured it's better to sleep than cry and I've already been up for much too long and today's been stressful enough.

It feels weird not having him in the bed with me. I know he's only been gone for a little while, but just the uncertainty of it all makes it feel like forever.

I miss his having his body against mine at night, I miss waking up to those pretty eyes, I want to be able to run my hands through his hair until I fall asleep again.

I'm angry as hell at him right now, but I still love him.

My nap ends up lasting around 3 hours, which is a little longer than I had intended but it was still much needed.

I felt better for like a second after I woke up but then I reality rules it's ugly face again when I remember that, oh yeah no big deal I've just got a baby growing inside of me who's father wants nothing to do with me.

This couldn't get any worse and I don't even know what I'm going to do about my classes or Alex or anything anymore.

School. Oh my god school.

I haven't even started my project and it's due when I go back.

I don't feel up to it right now but I've got to put all that aside so I can at least try and get some of this done.

Alex POV
The first day at the printing company actually went better than I thought it would. The work load wasn't too big and I was actually able to catch onto things pretty fast.

I kept thinking about Georgia at certain parts throughout the day. It was just little things that would remind me of her.

I've got it bad and I know it was shitty the way I left and everything but I just knew I never would have been able to face her and still leave.

I only did it though because I do love her and I don't want her to get hurt anymore, which is exactly what I was doing to her.

"So how'd you like your first day?" Tommy says cutting of my thoughts.

"It was good and it seems easy enough, so I can't complain." I say.