Fools •Yoonmin•

II

He's gone.
He left but I can't seem to let him go.
I thought he loved me. He said he did. But in the end it was all lies. Everything he ever said to me. They were all lies.
But how was I supposed to know? Even if he hurt me, I loved him. Through everything he did, all the times he made me cry. I loved him.
He was all I had.
'Had'....
He's gone...

Yoongi wiped a tear from the side of his face as he struggled catching his breath. He looked at the Polaroid picture in his hand and forced a sad smile on his lips as he recalled the memories he once loved.
The boy he loved, the one he would've given his life for, had left him.
The one he called the love of his life, left him broken and alone.

Just like almost every night for the past month, Yoongi was sitting on his bedroom floor with that Polaroid picture in his hand.
Thinking back about the time he spent with the boy he loved, the boy who left.
By now he was surprised he even had tears left to cry but somehow they always kept coming and he couldn't stop it no matter how hard he tried. His eyes felt heavy but he couldn't sleep.
The cuts in his arms were hurting but nothing could ever hurt as much as his heart did.
He sighed, his breath shaking heavily as he tried his best to stop crying. He hit his chest as he desperately looked up at the ceiling.
Why are you like this Min Yoongi? You should know better...
He got up from the floor and walked over to his bed. He wanted to sleep. But every time he did, he hoped that he wouldn't wake up. He hated everything. Himself the most.

Why couldn't he just move on and be happy?