Healing Love

How to go on?...

Today was like another normal day.
I woke up
I looked at myself in themirror( surprised to see my hair wasn't that messy)
And went to college.

As I stepped through the door I got nervous, remembering what had happened yesterday. I just shook it off and went to class.
Don't worry God is with you. I kept reassuring myself. It was a long day and I went home, threw myself on the bed and stared at the ceiling. Then all of the suden I had a flashback of the guy. He was quite a gentleman. He looked worried after I woke up and I could understand why. After all is not every day you save a person from drowning after being kidnapped and almost getting slaped by the person you saved.

"He probably thinks I'm so weird." I said looking at a poster I had in my ceeling that had my favorite chapter. It was psalm 1.
"I wonder how he is." I said to myself
"No!" I need to forget about him. I said talking to myself, since I live alone.
Focus Abigail, I know I need to finish that essay for tomorrow afternoon. If I finish it now I can be less stressed out.

I think I should call Rachel.

I got my phone and called one of my best friends.

"Hey, how are you my little sheep."( that was my nickname for her).
"Good thank God. How are you?"
"About to start an essay."
"Well I will leave you then, because you are always leaving things for last minute."
"Wait!... I said as fast as I could.".....I...I need to tell you something."

"Call me on FaceTime."

We allways talk on FaceTime during "girl talk." So that we can see better each others facial expressions.

"Ok spill." She said as she laid on her bed with her pijamas. They were her favorites. I knew because she wears them every single night since she was 15 years old.

I told her what happened yesterday since I woke up, to the dream I had. Afther I was done she was staring at me and all of the sudden she smiled raising an eyebrow, wich she knew always made me laugh.

"What... what's wrong?"
"You liked it.... You liked the kiss." She said wigilling her eyebrow up and down.
"What... No!" I was shocked at her comment.
"If you didn't like it, or didn't hate it, then why are you calling me at 10:00pm and procrastinating your essay that it's worth 20% of your final grade... I know you leave everything for last minute, but you hate even getting a B+."

"Because I don't know what to do or who to talk to. Girl, I haven't even had my first kiss yet. Well....used to."
"Well that's right. The closest you ever got to a guy was to ask for a pencil. And you got nervous before to even do that."
" Well you know what happened with my dad...so."
She opened her eyes wide seeing she accidentally got the conversation to my dad.
"Im sorry..I"
"It's okay, don't worry."

There was abrief momment of silence, though it only lasted five seconds, since Raechael really likes to talk.

"So.....was he cute."
I felt amasaed at her curiosity...again.
"That's not important." I said triying to act as calm as possible.

Most girls turn pink when they fell embarrassed, I have dimples, so when I get nervous my dimples get bigger and more noticible. I know weird, but some people find it cute. So being one of my best friends she would surely notice.

"I see the dimples... How was he?"
" Ok! I will tell you. You are so curious, Thank God you don't gossip."
" So... Spill" She opened wide her bright blue eyes en looked at me with enthusiasm.
" He was tall.."
"I am already liking this." She said without even letting me finish my sentence.

I am really tall, or at least I consider it tall. I'm 5'10 so every guy I knew, from childhood to eleventh grade was either smaller or the same size as me, but I prefer taller guys, and my friends know it.

"He had tanned skin, big brown eyes, straight black hair, pearly white theet and had a slim, but tonned figure."
"Did you like him?"
" Why does it matter?"
Her face was in total shock." You do.. You like him."
"It doesn't matter, I'll probably never see him again."
"You never know." She said smilling wide.
I kept quiet for a moment and Rachel noticed.

"What's wrong."
"Nothing, is just that he is the fist man I have met whom I have felt so comfortable with."
"Present it to God and let Him take control."
"Ok, thanks."
"That's what friends are for."
" Tomorrow we need to tel this to Grace."
"Ok, hey let's pray, since it's almost eleven and I need to go to skeep and you have an essay to finish."
We prayed and I hung up.
I layed myself on the bed half an hour after I had finished and emailed my essay. I looked at the ceeling with my favorite chapter from the bible.
"God this situation I put it in your hands. Guide me, so that I can everyday get more close to you through Jesus Christ, Amen."
Then I closed my eyes and went on a beautiful sleep.
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That was the beginning of a long and beautiful process in my life in which my deepest wounds would finally heal through.
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There's a new chapter and I am so excited. Thank you guys a lot for the support and I thank God most for letting me experience this beautiful feeling of saying positive messages through one of my passions. I wanted to give you guys a long chapter, since my most recent haven't been that long. Well I need to go now, but there will soon be a lot of new surprises... Maybe even a new book!!!
If I keep writing I'll end up spilling the beans, so *mimics sipper around mouth* I won't say another word, for now about the other stories. I love you guys so much God bless you.

Kisses, Sofi