A Twisted Love Story: Best of Friends

We were strangers turn to friends and to close friends and to best friends.

But one thing we never turn to. We never turn to lovers.

I'm like an ordinary best friend who fall in love to my best friend. But our story didn't turn out like any other best friend stories.

I looked at my reflection on the mirror wearing a nice long red gown which brings the best body shape out of me. I look gorgeous and awesome, I would say. And I would really be happy if only the event I'll be going is not the wedding of my best friend.

"The wedding of the only man I love." I whisper unconsciously to myself as a tear run down in my face.

I wiped it. I should be happy now. Be happy for him but I just can't.

And the painful fact is that I’m the maid of honour. The shadow of the bride. Just a shadow in his sight indeed.

I flash a fake smile as I leave the dressing room.

This is it. How I wish this day didn't come but it did.

"Hey Crest are you ok?" Gybsy ask me. He is the best man so we sit next to each other. The wedding march had just ended.

Gybsy is my close friend too as well as the bride named Clarisse. We became friends when we were in high school. It was 10 years ago while the groom is my best friend since we were 5 years young.

"Yeah i am fine. Why would I not be?" I answer as i fake a smile towards him.

"You know that I know you love Jayden. So don't lie to me." He said seriously while looking to the soon to be married couple.

"Tsk. Then stop asking the obvious. You're just making me feel complicated." I bite my lower lip to stop those tears from falling.

He just looked at me with those pity look and grab my hand on my lap then hold it tightly.

"I'm just here." He smiled weakly then faces the priest again.

Then our conversation ended.

The ceremony is still on process and in every minute that goes by my heart is slowly tearing apart. I'm slowly shredded into pieces where only I and Gybsy know.

I was in deep agony inside me. Keep on thinking why not me? what's wrong about me? And what's in her that I don't have?

I know this is wrong. They're both my friend but I just can't help it.

Then a music keeps on playing in my mind.

It was Speak Now by Taylor Swift.

 Then an idea pop up in my mind with a question.

If I'll do that will he do the same as what the man did in the song? Am I willing to take the risk? What if he'll reject me? Am I brave enough to lose him?

Well I did lose him already but am I willing to pay the cost? Our friendship will surely end.

I am full with these thoughts when the priest asks the question. What will I do? Someone please rescue me.

"Anyone who wants to object this wedding?" The priest repeated.

Then I suddenly stand up.

I myself was shock too of what I did but I can't undo this already. Better say this than never.

I'll risk...

I know all eyes were on me. Looking intensely at me. Maybe others were glaring but I'm only looking at him.

"I am not the kind of girl who would be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion and you know that but I have loved you. I love you Jayden and will always love you. It might seem strange but it started since we were in high school. From the start i know this feeling was wrong so I tried plenty of times to stop this insanity but I just can't." Then my voice broke as tears keep on falling in my cheeks but I am still looking at him.

"I just can’t Jayden. We were strangers turn to friends but never been lovers and it pains me a lot. It kills me watching you so happy with her and when i heard you propose to her my world was burned down. Am I not good enough? Am I not fitted for you? What did I lack Jayden?"

"Crest please stop. Nothing lacks from you. You're perfect." He said with those eyes full of pity.

"Then why not me? I keep on hoping one day you'll notice me too. But that day never came. But still i keep on hoping. Hoping you won’t say yes and just run away from me. Wishing you'll not say a single vow to her. Jayden Cydee. Did you ever just once love me more than as your best friend and as a sister?" I ask pleading he'll say yes but I was ruined when he answered.

"No." He said looking down.

I burst in tears and run away as fast as I could. Away from the place where I found out the painful truth. I already know he'll might answer that but its still so painful to hear it coming straight from him.

That two letters are enough for me to realize how dim-witted I am to expect that our story will end up like any other fairy tale stories.

I ran along with this heavy rain pouring on me.

Then someone grabs my hand and hugs me tight.

“I have loved you, love you and will always love you too Crest. Please stop it. When you're in pain because of him I am more in pain too. I know this sound crazy and I look pathetic but I won't pretend anymore. Whether you like it or not I will help you forget him and I will show you how much I love you. I promise to try my hardest to make you happy and will love you forever. I love you so much Crest Adrieanna."

"Gybsy." I state his name.

Then he sealed it with a kiss in my forehead.

Beneath the crying sky who witnessed my agony along with the beginning of my new life.

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(c) April 2014