[sad story] just close your eyes

its almost christmas and i can't wait to give him my present. class is over but the day isn't. i started to look for him by his favorite spots around town. i need to give it to him now before its too late and coming from his girlfriend i hope he likes it. then i remembered he has his last christmas performance today so i dashed as fast as i could to reach him in time.

i was so relieved when i wasn't late but what i saw made me think otherwise... there he was chatting so happily with someone else. i'm ashamed to say it but i was jealous with how good they looked together. even though i know they're only friends. it still hurts just to see. they're so close that people even tease them of being in love. in fact. i don't even know who to believe cause my own heart can't take it anymore.

i continued to blankly stare at them while hearing the loud beat of my heart [like a dramatic background beat] then finally he saw me. he must have seen straight through me cause he asked 'are you okay?' she looked at me as well and my voice got caught up in my throat. i almost couldn't speak. couldn't even move but i won't allow that. i need to get out of there.

i diverted my eyes cause i don't want him to see me suddenly cry. i managed to murmur 'yeah im okay' while looking down at my feet. slowly taking a step back away from him. i looked up again but he didn't believe me. i could see it in his face. he was worried now. he was about to come closer when he was called to perform again. he took one last look at me before he left.

i didn't stay there any longer. i forced my feet to move. even if it was slow and heavy as long as i get pass the crowd and out of his sight. and when i was far enough to see only a glimpse of him. i stood there crying... thinking of how much of a fool i was. not in loving him but the reason i acted that way and not even telling him how i felt...