Secret Love

Chapter Two

-Emily’s POV-

I keep looking out my window to see Nick’s car following. I wonder why he moved away. I forgot to ask him; maybe I can ask to show him around. I can get to know him better. I make the radio louder… Timber by Pitbull and Kesha is On

I love this song. I want to sing it as loud as I can and I don’t care who hears because I love this song and nobody will change that any time soon. The song comes to an end. I have to play this song over and over after school before I go back to hell. I make a right turn and look through my mirror to make sure Nick is still following me. I stop the car and slowly get out, preparing myself for the day ahead of me.

“Hey, not a long drive. I am happy about that.” Nick says while coming over to my car.

“Yeah, I wish it was longer though.” Darn Darn Darn, you shouldn’t have said that. He might think something is wrong. Wonderful, the first time I meet this dude I already make a mistake.

“What do you mean when you said I wish it was longer?” Nick says while trying to figure it out before I explain if I really want to.

“Never mind.” I said back to him. Ughhhh I already made a mistake today and it’s only been 5 minutes.

“One thing before you show me where the office is. I will find out what is wrong with you. I know there is.” Nick said while walking away from me.

“Sure you will. Nobody wants to know me nobody wants to know anything about me anyway.” I said in a pissed off attitude. I point to where the office is. I walk in the opposite direction. I can’t handle school this second. Wow, before it started a new one Emily, congrats.

I walk to my tree. It’s not really my tree. This has been the place I have gone to when stuff has gone wrong. If I ever go missing this is where I am at. It’s not in front of the school anyway so the odds of someone finding me are slim. I can’t believe I said that. I wish I was normal. I think I am just someone who should be depressed and die. I have already tried killing myself a few times what will once do. I take my phone out and put the music loud. Nobody can hear me; if they do they won’t do anything. I get up and start dancing like a fool. I used to dance like this with my mom before…. something happened.  I love this song.  I am listening to Spotify and a commercial comes on. Blurred Lines comes on. I remember the dance moves from Just Dance. I can’t remember which one though. I think I relaxed now. I decide to walk to school. I look at my phone and its 8:45am. I think wow an hour has already gone by. I guess me dancing helps pass the time.

I walk into school and I have to go to the office for a pass saying that I came in late.

“Emily, the usual happened?” The office lady said. I have told her everything and she hasn’t done a thing. That’s why I trust her. If she did a thing, I would have to deny it because I don’t want to know what will happen if she told someone.

“No, not this time. I said something to a new friend I made today and it didn’t work the way it was supposed to.” I said back to her and she has a shocked face on now.

“You’ll tell me during your lunch of course. I have a special seat for you. You might actually like this seat this time.” The lady said back to me as she hands me the pass.

“Of course, I don’t ever have a seat in the lunch room anyway. Thanks for the pass.” I said back while walking out of the office. I love her. She is like my 2nd mom and she knows that. She doesn’t treat any other student like me and that makes me feel special.

I make my way to English and I hope I made the correct decision with coming to class now and not later. I hope Nick found his way around and I am hoping he’s not in any of my classes right now. I missed first and second period so I don’t know if he’s in them. I would like him in at least one but then when he becomes popular and he ignores me like he never knew me I wish he would die in a hole when that will happen. I reach the door to the door. I have several decisions to make. Open the door, walk away or act like I fit in.

Knock. Knock. Knock. Knock.

“Keith  get the door. You sit the closest to the door get off your lazy butt and open the door.” I hear the teacher say. I guess they don’t want to leave me out this time. He gets up slowly and then he opens the door for me.

“Emily, may I have your pass for being late?” My teacher asked me. I hand it to her and then get in the back of the room to my normal seat. I don’t want to look around because then I will hear people making fun of me and I don’t want to hear it yet. I will hear it later though for a fact. I listen to the teacher talk and my mind starts to wonder. “Why don’t you go kill yourself?” “Why do you try to fit in?” “Do you really think someone loves you?” I think why I deserve all of this. I always have tried not to show emotion because people already feel bad for me and I don’t need anyone else who hasn’t yet to feel bad. I think most likely Nick already does. He was just nice because we weren’t around people. I think I will stand up to him and tell him what I am thinking. I don’t care if I lose him now, I already have nobody. I never got close to him. If I got close to him then it would be a problem but it’s not now or yet anyways. I look at the clock and I see that the bell is about to ring. The bell rings and I am dying to get out of class even though I was only hear 15 minutes out of the 45 minutes the others are supposed to be.

“Have a wonderful day.” My teacher tells us as all of us walk out of the class. It’s not like any of us listen. Some are kind and say it back but most just want to get out. It’s only third period. I think I will go to my locker and ignore all the comments I will be hearing as I make my way to my locker.

“Look who decided to show up! I wonder why she did. She should have just stayed where she was at.” One of the snotty girls says to her friends. I am shocked one of those girls has friends. I wouldn’t ever in a million years think she would have friends. I know I don’t have friends. I never thought I would have friends anyways. I make it to my locker and put in the code. I grab my books and go to class. I look and see I am currently in 3rd hall when I need to get in 1st hall. I decide to walk a little faster than I usually do to get on time. I realize thinking maybe Nick is in my class. The class is Math and I really don’t like Math. I am currently failing Math because I don’t understand it. I walk into class and I see…..

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