Makeup remover wipes S.M.

Chapter 37

I lay in the hospital bed I've been pretty much sentenced to for life. The cancer got worse so I sent a look alike to be with my baby girl. Nathan thinks he's me, so does everyone else. He even went through plastic surgery so she'd never know the difference. I really thought she'd need the help, she kept leaving me letters and I'm really upset that I won't get them any more but I can't hurt her any longer. I love her too much, I know it's wrong but she has eight babies and she was doing it all alone I couldn't handle leaving her like that. "Good morning beautiful," I sat into the microphone I have. He has an earpiece he uses so he knows what to say. I'm nervous she'll find something a little bit off about him and become super suspicious but I don't wanna worry about the what ifs.

"Hello handsome," I watch them through some cameras he set up all over the house, plus he wears one in his shirt. "I'm so happy you're home," she buries her head in his chest. I loose myself in the imagine for a moment telling him nothing to say to her while I pretend she's in my chest. "Is something wrong?" She mumbles.

"Nothing," he shakes his head nervous for what she might say next and I know it.

"I lost myself in the moment," I sigh into the mic. "It's too surreal," I grab a pillow and pull it into my chest holding it tightly as if it were her.

"Mr. Mendes," the nurse smiles while I watch them cuddle, she'll be quiet for hours like that. She's always loved being cuddled and held, I made this guy work out constantly because he needs to be able to carry her around. He has to be able to carry all of them and if he can't then he'll blow the whole thing. "These are all of the letters she's written to you," they sigh giving me a bucket of letters. They all smell like her and they're all stamped with her lipstick print.

"I missed you," I sigh sadly into the microphone.

"I missed you," he sighs of content at my baby girl, mine the one that I'm supposed to kiss, the one that I'm supposed to love on. She's kissing him now, she's hugging and holding him instead of me and I feel so broken.

"Does this mean we'll get married?" She gasps. Sitting up, I'd feared that, they can't legally get married like this, he's not me and I'm not him.

"Why?" He chuckles and she furrows her eyebrows.

"I'm serious, you've been acting weird all night." She crosses her arms. "You didn't wanna sleep with me last night, now you don't wanna get married?" The hurt look in her eyes bring me to tears while they fall from her eyes as well. "You wouldn't even say I love you," she wipes her cheeks. "Did I do something wrong? I never meant to hurt you."

"No, no you've done nothing wrong," I plead slightly but he refuses to speak my words any longer.

"No amount of money is worth watching this." He sighs pulling the earpiece out before pulling off the camera and running away. He saw all of the babies last night and he saw all of the kids and they were all so happy, all I wanted what for them to be happy.

"Hi baby girl," I mumble while she looks at the equipment. "I'm really sorry I had to do this to you but I didn't have the heart to tell you I wouldn't make it." I sniff wiping my tears. "I really have tried and I really, really wanted to come home to you guys and I wanted to hold my new babies but the doctors don't think I'll live." I trace her face from my computer screen. "I'm so sorry." A tear falls hitting the screen where her face is. "I love you angel wing and I love our kids too, I'm so sorry you'll have to do this alone I never planned on leaving so early."

She sobs into her hands bringing her knees to her chest while she contemplates what to tell the kids. She stands wearing simply one of my shirts that I know she didn't touch before. "Nathan I'm going out," I shut my laptop, I don't wanna know where she's going, if he goes to her dealer she'll loose the kids and if she comes here she'll loose her will to live.

"I'm so sorry Mr. Mendes," my nurse sighs. "I wish I could let you out to visit them." She stares at the door.

"I'm really gonna miss them," I sigh at the one soggy picture I keep of them. I hate it when they sterilize things, it ruins them. They even screwed up the little teddy bear she gave me. It's all soggy and the scent I know what there I kinda faded, it's freezing but it makes me warm, and it's touch it disgusting but it's comforting. I loved her so much. I got myself really attached, and I have the right to, she's an amazing girl and she's so beautiful and I will always love her. Till death do us part, remember?