Ezra's POV
A couple hours later I'm walking through the apartment door and I see Aria sitting in the same spot that she was in when I left. Her knees under her chin and her skinny arms wrapped around her skinny legs. She turns around at the sound of the door opening and she looks at me.
"Hi." She says before turning around and staring out the window again.
"Hey." I go and sit down on the couch on the far end and look at her. "I'm sorry." I say and she looks at me once again.
"For what?" She asks me quietly tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear.
"For what I said before. You didn't deserve any of that. I was just-" She cuts me off.
"You don't need to explain yourself. You shouldn't be sorry either." She sighs and plays with her fingers, "I should be the one sorry Ezra. So, I'm sorry. For shutting you out, for blaming myself. For screaming at you. For saying you don't understand when you really do. I know that this baby was yours too I just blamed myself for losing your child that I didn't want it to be yours." She says as tears fall down her face.
I move closer to her and wipe the tears falling down her pale face.
"Why didn't you want the baby to be mine?" I ask her grabbing her hand gently.
"Because you would've been disappointed. Hurt. I was scared that you we're going to blame me for loosing our child and I wouldn't know if I could handle you blaming me as well as my self. I'm sorry." She mumbles and I pull her into a hug.
My hand rubbing circles on her back and its in that moment that I notice how well you can feel each bump of her bone and how skinny-how deathly skinny she has become.
"I wouldn't of blamed you Aria. I would never blame you for something thats far out of your control." I move her so she's looking me in the eyes and I wipe her eyes gently running my fingers over her dark circles. "Aria I'm worried about you." I say and she nods.
"I know." She whispers. "I need to see someone about eating. About this depression. About loosing the baby. I need to get professional help." She finishes for me. I nod and kiss her head.
"We can look for those tomorrow. Right now lets just be here." I say and Aria climbs into my lap, her head snuggling under my neck. I kiss her head and cradle her closely to me.
"We never got to see our baby Ezra. We never got to hear their heartbeat. We never got to bring them home. We never got to take them to their first day of school. We never got to meet them." Aria says breaking down again. I whisper comforting words into her ear and rock as back and forth. "A-and when we were coming home from our date Ed Sheeran's song came on. Small Bumb. Ezra it was a sign." Aria sobs and I kiss her head.
She looks up at me, "can you sing it for me....please." She squeaks out and I nod, a watery smile on my face.
"You're just a small bump unborn, in four months you're brought to life
You might be left with my hair, but you'll have your mother's eyes
I'll hold your body in my hands, be as gentle as I can
But for now you're scan of my unmade plans,
A small bump in four months you're brought to life
A small bump in four months you'll open your eyes
I'll whisper quietly, I'll give you nothing but truth
I'll hold you tightly, I'll give you nothing but truth
If you're not inside me, I'll put my future in you
You are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight
Oh, you are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight
And you'll be alright
Oh, you're just a small bump unknown, you'll grow into your skin
With a smile like hers and a dimple beneath your chin
Finger nails the size of a half grain of rice
And eyelids closed to be soon opened wide
A small bump, in four months you'll open your eyes
And I'll hold you tightly, I'll tell you nothing but truth
And I'll hold you tightly, I'll give you nothing but truth
If you're not inside me, I'll put my future in you
You are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight
Oh, you are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight
And you'll be alright
And you can lie with me
With your tiny feet
When you're half asleep
I'll leave you be
Right in front of me
For a couple weeks
So I can keep you safe
'Cause you are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight
You are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight
And you'll be alright
'Cause you were just a small bump unborn for four months then torn from life
Maybe you were needed up there but we're still unaware as why." I sing for Aria.
"You would've made an amazing father Ezra. Aria whispers and I kiss her head rocking as back and forth as tears spill from both of our eyes.
"You will be an amazing mother Aria. One day, when the time is right." I whisper to her and she nods.
"We will be parents. To the same baby." She says and I smile, kissing her head again.
Rocking us until we fall asleep.
Until we fall asleep in each others arms where we feel the most safest. Where we feel at home.
Hoping for a brighter day tomorrow...
A/N
Hey guys,
Did you guys like this chapter?
I don't really know, I had mixed feelings about it.
But I got a chapter up and I'm proud of myself! *claps* (Okay no.)
Love you,
- Chloë xoxo
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