It's My Life

Chapter 1 - Surprise Proposal

"i miss you baby". i told Jon over the phone. "i miss you too baby. so so much." he replied in his sexy, croaky voice. Jon had been on tour for 7 month and this was the longest i had ever been without him. everyday without him felt weird and empty. he was always with me and now he's just not. i usually join him on tour, but this year i had exams, and he insisted i stayed home and revised. 3 more months touring until he came home and when exams were over. "will i see you before tour is over?" i asked him with the slightest bit of hope in my voice. "i don't think so honey, we're touring every night for a solid 3 months. ill see you after though" he said, trying to sound positive.

'You have to board your plane Mr Bongiovi'

i heard his manager say in the background. "that's me baby girl, i gotta go, i'll speak to you soon. i love you more than anything" he says. "i love you too, have a safe flight" i say trying to hold the tears back and refrain my voice from giving it away.

i placed my phone down on the table beside our bed and lay down. i stared at the ceiling, thinking about Jon. all i could think about was Jon. i missed him more than anything. all i kept doing was remembering the little things about us, like how everytime we walked on the pier, we would stop by that same exact ice cream shop and get the same exact ice cream as always. or how he would wake me up randomly one night in the week at 4am and pack the car with blankets and coffee so we could go somewhere to watch the stars disintegrate into the sunset. or how we would go to the same deserted park and lay beneath the same tree everytime and just watch the world go by together. all i could do was think about Jon and it made me missing him worse. i cried and cried thinking about the memories we made, and even just remembering the little things he would do or say. i went into our wardrobe and pulled out an old t-shirt of his, that smelt so strongly of him and put it on and then tried to get to sleep. i lay down on his side of the bed, that still smelt of him and cuddled up in his pillows and sheets and drifted off to sleep.

I woke up to a warmth beside me in the bed. unsure of what it was, i turned the bedside light on and looked over at the warmth. "that's my side baby" Jon whispered. "OH MY GOD WHAT" i screamed as i jumped on top of him, hugging him so so tightly and kissing him a million times. he chuckled and grabbed me, with one arm around my waist and one around my neck. "was this a nice surprise honey?" Jon stupidly questioned as he sat up from my attack. "THE BEST surprise ever baby" i exclaimed, kissing him again. he stood up, guiding me up too by holding my hands. he stopped to look at me and gazed at me up and down with his dreamy sparkly eyes. i grabbed him again and hugged him this time, jumping into his arms and wrapping my legs around his buff torso. "i missed you so fucking much" i said into the crook of his neck, whilst tears streamed down my face. "i missed you so fucking much too sweetheart" Jon whispered carefully, whilst caressing the back of my neck with one hand and the other still lodged solidly on my waist. "you know, you get more and more beautiful every single time i lay my eyes on you" he moans whilst looking so deeply into my eyes. i blush and smile uncontrollably and look back up at Jon biting my lip to try and contain every emotion going on. "how did i live without you for 7 months" i mumbled whilst he smiled and swayed me side to side gently.

"i thought you couldn't make it back to see me until the tour ended?" i asked confused. "well i told my manager that i really needed to do something incredibly important so he gave me 2 days off, and it didn't interrupt any gig so i'm here " Jon said. "and what was that incredibly important thing?" i asked him biting my lip again and smiling. "you'll soon see" he whispered whilst tucking a piece of my hair behind my ear.

Jon reached into his duffle bag and pulled out a blind fold and held it up to me presenting it as if i knew what he was doing. "put it on" he ordered. "Jon if you just wanted to come home for kinky sex you could have just said you know because i would have been down for it" i said laughing. "no no it honestly makes sense babe just put it on and you'll find out. i'll also keep that little thing you just said noted for later on tonight" he chuckled as he watched me place the blindfold on my eyes. He sat me down on the bed while he searched around for more things in his bag, then told held my hand and guided me down stairs. he sat me down on the couch as i heard him placing things on the coffee table in front of me, before instructing me to take it off. as i removed the blindfold, Jon was holding a scrap book with 'Cassidy & Jon, the start of our forever' written on the front of it in red glitter, along with red roses on the coffee table, wine, and tee light candles scattered inbetween. i immediately began to cry because of how sweet everything he did was. i looked up at him and he was smugly biting his lip and raised his eyebrows as if to tell me to open it.

as i opened the book, there was photos and napkins from us on our first date, with little captions beside them, informing me on everything that happened. as i flicked through the pages, i was introduced by more photos and souvenirs from various dates and adventures that we had been on together. i made it to the last page of the book which had a huge paragraph on it.

"Cassidy, i am so in love with you. Everything you do, and everything about you makes me fall deeper and deeper in love with you. You are my happiness and you are my reason for living. You are the most beautiful girl inside and out, and can always make anyone and everyone feel happy, and comfortable with themselves and being around you. i admire you so much for that. i know you will be an amazing mother one day to our children and i know that you will also be an amazing wife to me. Thankyou for loving me baby. i want you to be 100% mine forever. now look up at me"

i looked up at him with tears blocking my vision and streaming down my face. Jon got down on one knee and held open a velvet box with the most beautiful, sparkling diamond ring inside. "everything i said on that note is true baby. i want you to be my forever as well as my everything. Cassidy Lambert, will you please do me the honour by marrying me?" he said in the most amazing voice ever. i was speechless from how amazing he was, how much effort he went through and how beautiful everything was. i began with a nod as i couldn't speak for the tears then began to exclaim "yes. yes. yes Jon baby yes". he slipped the ring onto my finger, as i watched it sparkle. he looked back up at me and kissed me so passionately. we both stood up, and without breaking the kiss, he lifted me up and carried me up stairs. "now, what did you say before about that blindfold?" Jon hinted as he lay me down on our bed that was now covered in rose petals. i looked up at him and laughed, before wrapping my legs around his torso and my arms around his neck. "i'll love you baby. always." he said, before leaning in to kiss me one final time, before undressing me for the night...