Always

Chapter 1

Y/N POV

Not knowing what to do is the worst feeling in the world. Being in a situation that constantly is breaking your heart you'd think that any sane human being would remove them selves from it. Of course I wasn't sane. No, I'm just in love with someone who doesn't feel the same way. So here I sit, waiting for my flight for Jamaica. Maybe there is a bit of hope for us if she invited me to spend time together during her birthday, the big twenty-one birthday bash. Looking at the caller id I could feel my heart nearly rip out of my chest.

"Hi." Was the only thing i could get out.

"Hi. How are you?" I could hear the nerves seep through her voice. We hadn't spoken to each other in a couple of months. I mean we exchanged text messages every now and then, but it was just small talk, neither of us bringing up what happened that night or anything remotely relevant to that topic. Us. 

"I'm well, thank you. You?"

"Good, thanks," Oddly the moment of silence between us wasn't uncomfortable. Quite the opposite actually. We hadn't heard each other's voices in a while and it was nice. "I was just checking if you were still coming?" She wants me there. 

"I'm at the airport now."

"Really? That's great. I'll get to see you soon then."

"You will. I'll see you soon Lauren"

"See you when you get here Y/N." With that i hung up now a little less nervous than I was before the phone call. At least now I know Lauren is excited to see me. That must mean there's hope, surely. Honestly I couldn't wait to see Lauren, to hopefully getting back together and moving on with our future. I guess you could say the break up was mutual but that didn't mean I stopped loving her. How can you? How do you stop loving someone with a flick of a switch. Trust me there were plenty of times I wanted to so badly. To hate her for doing what she did. I just couldn't. Her family will be there, I'm pretty sure Lauren never told them the reason why we broke up, just that it was what we both wanted. I don't think Lauren could bring herself to be honest with them because it would mean that she had to be honest with herself. Face the truth. She's not a bad person, quite the opposite actually she truly is the most amazing person I have ever met. You just can't help who you fall for and I can't blame her for that. I only ever blamed myself for it, always wondered why I wasn't enough for her and what I could have done to change her mind or how she felt. 

Looking at all my notifications on Twitter fans were begging me for new music, it had been nearly two years since I released my last album and tour. I took a break ironically to spend more time with Lauren you see. It was only recently once I finished touring Lauren and I got together and things took off pretty fast. We had only been together for three months before her and the girls had to leave for tour and I made the decision to have some time for myself. I mean being with Lauren wasn't the soul reason as to me taking time off, I was definitely due for a holiday so why not, two birds with one stone. Lauren was ecstatic and we were caught up in our little love bubble. Only our close friends and family knew about us, not that I didn't want to tell the world. 

Not that it stopped fans from speculating since we spent so much time together, we had always maintained that we were very close friends, that I was close to all the girls. People weren't stupid though. Checking my phone it was time to board my flight. Here we go. 

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Fuck talk about not getting any sleep on that flight, I almost always sleep like a baby on flights since I was so use to them. Being on tour a lot you get use to a few things, such as your tour bus, hotel rooms and lots of flights. This time the whole no sleep most likely is because I'm still nervous to see her. Here I am though, all checked in my room that she had organised, more like a villa I should say. She had made sure that everyone she had invited were staying in villas, most of them were sharing since they were family or friends with everyone. Makes sense that I had one to myself. How awkward would it be if I had to share one with one of her friends, or worst her. It could go in two different directions. We would stay in opposite sides of the room or we'd be sharing a bed and be having incredible make up sex. Can you guess which of the two would most likely happen?