Hey, my name is Sam. I grew up in Pennsylvania. I'm 14 year old and I'm a freshman in high school. I live in a world were some people would rather jump head first off a building then come out to there parents as gay, trans, non-binary and many other things. In this same world people have been kicked out of there houses, even murdered for coming out. Now you're probably woundering what this has to do with me, I'll get there soon.
First let's start at the beginning it was Monday August 7th 2015 5:45am. Today was my first day at my new school, being me in all I didn't know what to wear. I usually would have to throw on a dress (my mom says i need to look nice when its my first day) but today something felt... Different. I didn't want to wear a dress. To be honest I never do but I do to make my mom happy. So I put on some jeans and a dress shirt. I would have done a tie but I knew I would never get out of the house wearing that, besides I don't even own a tie I'm not allowed to. I walked of my room and my mom said to warm up some left over pancakes from the previous day. After breakfast I got my backpack from my room, put on my sneakers, and mom drove me to school. When I got there A teacher was waiting to show me were to go. This was nothing new to me this was my 5th school in the last 4 years. the teacher said "hello Samantha I'm ms. Rose" she then showed me where all my classes are and took me to meet the rest of my teacher. I will admit I was a little nervous it being my first day an all, but then I saw you walking in the school courtyard my heart skipped a beat cause damn were you hot. I thought I was bisexual but hadn't told anyone yet. I was scared to come out. As we lined up for class you looked at me. I had never been one to be scared of make friends. I walked up to you and said "hey" I then told you I was a new kid at the school and you said you were too. You said this was also your first day.
Im always trying to make someone smile, i love cracking jokes and making stupid comments. Honestly I hate to see anyone upset. So I told you then we can explore the School together. You nodded and told me you'd like that. When we go to class it turned out you and I were in the same homeroom together. The teacher introduced us saying we were new students to the school. As if the students didn't already know that, which they clearly did.
After that..... interesting...introduction we had to sit through one more class and then it was lunchtime. Well headed down to lunch, i was in the sixth grade at the time, so I went and sat down with the rest of the sixth graders. I liked public school to be completely honest. I had been in public schools before, but in the beginning I was being homeschooled. But after half a school year of homeschooling I gave up I couldn't handle it anymore. It was be isolated from the world and I couldn't handle it. Anyway at lunch I sat with you and I made three other friends. Their names were Sarah, Ashley, and katy. They were all pretty cool you connected with them pretty quick. But you never hung out with anybody but me. We hung out at school everyday and when we werent at school we would hang out at your house or the park. You never really found out why I never took you to my house. I was embarrassed that you would meet my family and hate them... or me.. You would see my room and think I'm weird. It always frightened to thing what could happen. I did take you to my house a year after we met but we were only there for like 10-15 minutes.
A few weeks of school went by And the school was having a dance we got ready in the girls bathroom you did your makeup and I threw on a dress shirt. We laughed about stupid shit. We took lots of selfies and you help me straighten my hair and then I stuffed my hair into a beanie. Then it came time for the dance we first met up with Sarah and Ashley. Katy hadn't come she wasn't the type of person to go to dance to be completely honest I wasnt either. As people were dancing with there friends. Ashley and you we're set me up with a guy I thought was kind of i guess "cute". At the end of the night I started dating him and Ashley started dating someone too. The next day Ashley ended up breaking up with her new boyfriend. I was still dating mine. But a week later he turned into a total asshole (plus I realized I don't like guys) and I broke up with him. Which unfortunately was a week before Valentine's Day. It hurt but I didn't think much of it.
Valentine's day rolled around I liked you so much. So I asked you out. Well I asked you to be my Valentine and to my surprise you said yes! So the next day after school we went on a picnic at the park. I had a asked you out a few hours earlier. I gave u a gift and you gave me one too (which I still have that charm bracelet to this day) I was so happy. At the park we ate, played soccer, talked, and just enjoyed each others company.
When we got to you're house you said you couldn't date me. I asked why and you said you don't know how you felt. I asked you to give me a chance and you did. That whole year we dated on a off. Till you got a new friend and ditched me. We still talked here and there. But for a while it when from saying hi in the hall ways to barley looking at each other. But it did change eventually. But in between us dating on and off sometimes you made me feel like nothing like I had no purpose in your life. Eventually I believed it and got used to being treat like I'm nothing.
