ADVENTURES - #HOMELESS

CHAPTER I

i was homeless; 2 months ago my parents decided to divorce and now i am having to go from my mothers house and my fathers house every two weeks. I am never fixed which to be very frank, i love, i don't have a longing to feel solid. i like to feel indifferent, it gives me sort of fresh feeling towards everything.

it is now my mothers turn to have me for two weeks. honestly i feel like they both couldn't care less which house i go to next, i know i remind both of them of the family that they lost. They both try to tell me that it's fine and everything will go back to how it was before, when we were all happy.

I don't see how that is possible - they have divorced. That little happy family is long gone. I don't really mind to be completely honest, its their life as well so its up to them if they wanted to find their love again or not and they decided not to.

With everything going on i feel homeless. I feel like i don't belong anywhere and its honestly the best feeling, I have always hated that moments in life where everything was just the same old same old - i needed  something different and this divorce was the perfect escape for me.

two months ago i was the picture perfect child - i was getting As in my class, never partying, hadn't touched a drink in my life.. you name it. I was a complete nun, I mean no disrespect to people out there that are like that but for me it grew old way to fast.

I knew something was happening with my parents as the fights were getting more and more and they stopped trying to hide it from me - they wouldn't ever fight in front of me but they wouldn't stop when they heard me enter the house. they would go to their rooms and just fight for hours long sometimes and sometimes one of them would just storm off and go for a walk.

I was on my way back from school when my mother, Julia messaged me and said, "hello dear, your father and i need to talk with you. when will you be home?" i knew what was about to happen before it happened. i am not an idiot, i could see that they both decided trying to find their love again was getting too hard. "hi mum, i will be home in 5 minutes." i texted my mother back. she responded within a few seconds, "great!"

I was outside on my porch, i took a deep breath and went inside to find both of my parents on the couch with their hands in the laps; they looked horribly nervous.  i sighed silently and said, "hey," they both looked at me and i could see it in their eyes. they had those loving eyes on right now.

My father was on my right and my mother on my left and i had to sit in the center seat. i made my way over to it slowly once i had sat down i placed my bag next to my feet. for some reason i become nervous  - i dont know why, i hadnt done anything. I know i wasnt as nearly as nervous as my parents. They both couldn't look at me now, both staring at their hands in their laps.

"whats up?" i played it cool, i could feel they just had a fight, they tension was so thick in the air that i could barely breath.

my father was the one to speak first, "your mother and I wanted to speak with you.." he looked mover to my mother briefly and continued, "I'm sure you have noticed Julia and I fighting.." I could see it was hard for him to continue. I was staring straight at home trying to keep my cool, I wasn't angry at them, sure I was a little sad but if that's what they thought was best thing it's fine.

"David and I.." my mother continued, "have... dear, with everything that's been happening lately your father and I have decided that it's best we take a break." I didn't realise I had stopped breathing. My throat become so tight I wasn't even able to move.

"we love you and I hope you can forgive us." My dad said. I looked over to see my mother crying silently.

There was a pause in the air and I didn't really know what to do.

"We are getting a divorce, dear. And I really want to make it clear that it has nothing to do with you. We just fell out of love." My father said. He now was in tears.

I didn't feel like crying, not one bit. It's their choice. I didn't want to cry, I'm older enough to know  what happens to parents when they fall out of love.

"Mum, dad.. it's your choice. I don't mind; sure it's going to be weird but if you two don't want to find your love again then that's fine." I said to them both.

They both just stared at me. Neither of them said anything, I think they were expecting me to be heart broken.. well, I'm not. They only thing that angers me is that they didn't try find it; they married each other for a reason but somewhere somehow they both gave up. I think it was long ago that they both gave up.

"you're not mad?" My mother breathed. I looked at her and slightly smiled to brake the ice, "sure, but it's not my choice. I don't want to live in a house where both of you two are ripping each other's faces off. If you have 'fallen out of love' then the best thing for you to do is split up." I knew what I have said probably wasn't what they thought I would say.

"So you're not mad?" My dad asked. "no, it's your lives. I'm 18 now, I'm no longer a child. I understand." My mother started crying even harder and I knew she needed a hug so I got up and hugged her.

She hugged me tight and said, "thank you, dear. That means so much to us." I laughed and said, "it's fine seriously." I let go of her and said, "so... what do we do now?" They both looked at each other and and sighed.

My father was the one to speak first, "we are going to be selling this house.." well, that's one thing I didn't think of, my childhood life I spent here and now someone else is going to be taking it away.

it makes sense though, both of my parents wouldn't want to live in a house that once shared a happy memory of a family.

"How soon?" was all I could think of staying.

"as soon as possible." They both looked at each other again. I could feel that they both still deep down loved each other and now were just sad that they couldn't respark what they once had.

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