You appeared out of the nowhere. Came trough the door and you saw my Condition.
I couldn't describe the look on your face, you've been speechless for several minutes.
I didn't know why, i was totally desperate. Shouldn't i've been the speechless one, because you've dissappeared for a whole month and now was standing in front of my door?
"Why?" It was everything that left your mouth. Your worried and, my misinterpreted thought, that you've looked disgusted, look made me feel unsafe. I looked down on my feet. Where was your explanation, where was your tight hug? Where was your lovely look?
I remembered the last month without you, why i felt so miserable. Why i was down.
And the only thing that came in my mind was you.
You. The One that left me, for "a week", the one, that stayed longer for a stupid bitch. That just ignored my damn feelings.
The One i loved.
The One that was my Anchor, my oxygen and all the stars to my moon.
And still is.
I was messed up; so my mind. The Voices were whispering, crying and screaming and i couldn't endure it.
It was too much for my fragile body to handle.
I did something surely stupid. It destroyed everything between us.
I recognized your shocked countenance, how everything was tearing apart slowly.
Bit for bit, and i always thought it was only my fault till today.
"Because i love you."
