I've tried root my fears
I've tied all of myself
This only caused me tears
I've bottled it up for so long
there isn't a place to go
In school you feel like you've done it all wrong
They categorize you
Your subjected to stereotypes
It all becomes surreal
You know you'll need to tell
Yet you're afraid on how they feel
coated in teal
I hide myself for who I am trying to hid from the ordeal
Though I prolong waiting for someone who understands me says it'll be okay
I'm afraid that they'll have nothing to say
Or they'll spike their tongues and speak too much
I wonder how people come back
I wonder how they get that far
I wonder if I'll always be known for being gay
I'm afraid I'll forever be differentiated like the runt in the pack waiting for the time someone will help but be slowly forgotten but only known for a faint description of me and not what's past it being the subject of thousands of eyes making your heart race like the sharpness of a knife waiting to slide against the pale cold skin you're scared hopeless and wonder would they love me for me would they settle for me being me or reject me like someone who doesn't fit the social norm
It isn't easy accepting yourself of who you are only to wait for others too also accept who you are like you are only of the words they say but it's only a pathetic means of simple entertainment
I know I am I say I am because I know I am, but will they accept me because I say I am