It was the same, I met up with my friend for first period and she asked me about John, what I felt about him. I never told her how I felt because I was afraid she might do something to hurt me. I said he was just a friend. She was more curios and pretty persistent about it. She suspected me and knew I still liked him. She asked me, "Jordan, if you don't like him that way. Then is it okay if I ask him out?" The thought of them together made me sick, I blankly looked at her for a few seconds. I was listening to every word she said. Felt like she was testing me, I wanted to reply "Why does it have to be John?" I couldn't say it though, I'd also have to consider how John feels. She smiled, "It's okay, I'll back off. I'm not fake like that, okay? So don't worry. Besides, I'm way out if his league." I sighed in relief, but I still couldn't believe her. I wondered if she really wasn't lying. She continued her gossiping and rambling, chitter chatter, blah blah blah. I was entirely focused on the lecture. Even though I had her the next few periods. After first period, she left me to hang around her fake friends. I couldn't care less since I was going to see John later anyway.
After first period, I met up with John. He was talking with another student. That student was this pretty girl. The thought of him and someone else, hit me directly in my chest, like a dart hitting a bullseye. He smiled then looked at me, smirking my way. "Jordan, let's go! We'll be late!" I nodded and walked quickly ahead of him. "Hey! Jordan wait!" I was furious, who was she. This is absurd! I shouldn't care who he dates or not. Why did I even assume or think they were dating?! I wanted to run away, they looked so good together too. My chest ached and my stomach was whirling in circles, it felt like my world was crumbling into pieces, I felt dizzy. When John caught up to me, he said something about my face looking pale. He took me to the infirmary. I woke up after lunch and hadn't ate a thing since yesterday. The nurse gave me a string cheese to eat, chocolate pudding, and apple juice. She said to have a proper breakfast and what not. She said, "Girl's these days thinking about losing their weight this way.." she stared in disappointment.
I went back to class as soon as I finished the snack the nurse gave me. I felt a little better and got over everything. I guess, "You're really not you, When you're hungry." When I made it back, John let me copy his notes. He asked what happened, then scolded me after I explained. "Hey calling me lazy, and stupid, won't solve what happened!"After I said that, John looked concerned for me. He felt I needed to laugh again, so he invited me to his house afterschool. I texted my parents and told them, I'd be at Gossip Girl's house, and get home late. I knew they wouldn't accept me staying at John's, so I lied.
We first went to my house to bring Giri along with us. We finally reached John's place. When we entered his apartment, it felt empty, no, lonely. After he opened the door, a note was left behind for John. "Ah, I knew she'd work late again, today." John murmured loud enough for me to hear. I looked around, it was small but comfy. Picture frames decorated the hallway walls. Walking down the hallway into the living room, there was a couch a cafe brown color. Beneath lies a colorful rug, with different patterns covering it. There was a brown coffee table standing above the rug, it looked old, considering all the stains and scratches on the legs and the surface. To top off they have a flatscreen television, with many channels, I Bet!
It was quiet so I began to speak,
"So-" We both began to speak. We repeated together, "You go first." "No! You talk." This continued until he said, "Ladies first."
I nodded and asked, "I hope you don't mind me asking but Is it just you and your mom?" I regretted asking that because that one delighted smile turned into a frown. He stayed silent for awhile, then opened his mouth to say something, but Giri hissed loudly, he began scratching the wooden door. Giri was hissing at his own shadow. I quickly grabbed Giri but only the tip of my finger reached him and he swung his claws towards my arm. Giri hissed. I screamed in pain. Touching the claw mark Giri made. I pursed my lips together to prevent myself from crying. It hurt, a lot. John grabbed Giri put him into his cage and told me to make an appointment at the Vet for Giri. John then treated the wound on my right arm. I smiled then tears formed through my eyes. I never thought I felt this happy ever in my life. I grabbed Giri's cage and left John's apartment. He offered to take me home but I refused.
I didn't like this weird feeling inside of me. It was scary but this feeling was so persistent. I skipped happily down the road, humming a joyful tune.
It began to rain but it didn't matter to me, I continued skipping along the slippery wet road covered with muddy puddles. I began to run and stomp into the puddles like a child, nothing could stop me.
Once I arrived home, both my parents were sitting at the dining table with serious expressions. They weren't communicating at during dinner like they usually did. My father's right leg bouncing up and down. My mother had her arms crossed above the table. They both jumped when they heard me slam the door shut. "Jordan, come sit here please." Mother patted the seat next to her. Mother frowned and father's eyes narrowed. Mother began again, "I just want to let you know, whatever happens isn't your fault. We know that this isn't the best for you, we were going wait until you were ready for college. This just can't continue, we can't leave it this way. So let's just stop this. I can't contain myself any longer. Your father and I were never 'happily married' when we were younger we both had someone we truly loved and cared for but, our parents knew eachother and set an arranged marriage between your father and I." She paused. She gripped my hands into her fist. I could feel my heart ache not out of love or happiness, but in pain. I knew something like this would happen. It hurts, stop it. "Your father and I are getting a divorce." Tears dripping down my face, my cheeks and eyes were slowly swelling up. Puffy red. I clenched my teeth together, shut my eyes tight. I squeezed both my father's and mother's hands together. I thought, I shouldn't be doing this, I have no right to do this. My parents, should be happy, but why? I nodded in agreement, "Okay." I sniffed, wiped my nose and forced a smile, "As long as you're both happy with this." My mother forcefully hugged me along with my father. My mother and father still got along they just weren't as happy as they should've been.
Father finally spoke, "We'll let you decide who you want stay with, I'll be moving out of town, and your mother will stay. Whoever you choose will be your choice, not ours. You can even visit or stay at either house for a while." Father's smile wrinkles appeared after he said this. "Sorry dad, I wanna stay here with my friends, school, and neighborhood. I'll still be bothersome and visit here and there but I wanna stay."
Father nodded and playfully punched me. "So sad who will bully those gross boys looking at my beautiful daughter!" I was scared at first but now I'm okay. If it'll be like this then it's okay.
