Darkness. It was all I saw closing my eyes tight to ignore the rays of the sun that were trying to get through. It was all around, I hated complete darkness, but at that moment, I loved it more than anything. It was calm, and I felt safe as never before. Blackness felt so peaceful when knowing next to me was the man whom I'm in love with, the man whom I would sacrifice every bit of me to, the man who makes me feel safe and complete. Facing each other, sleeping on the same tiny couch. It was too tiny I still wonder how the both of us fitted on it, but I loved it because it brings me closer to him, sleeping on the rhythm of his heartbeats, and listening to the symphony of his restless breaths. It couldn't be more of a perfect scene. Until I started opening my eyes, craving to have a look at him, when for exactly 3 seconds I looked at him and he was staring at me with a heart-melting smile on his lips. Thoughts began running in my head, "why is he smiling while looking at me sleeping?" ,"does my hair look funny?" ,"Do i snore?", "is my morning breath killing him slowly that he started going insane?", but honestly I didn't care at that moment, all I needed was to squeeze him, and kiss the soul out of him, but all I did was closing my eyes again, pretending not seeing him staring at me, turning around and slamming my back to his chest, loving the feeling when he's behind me, arousing every living thing in my body, his hand hugging my stomach like a little baby holding his mom, his chin resting comfortably on my shoulder, denying that this can't last for too long, that one day I will not wake up next to him, kiss him, that one day I will wake up to an empty bed, and he will too. I hated the circumstances that were going to put us apart, to divide us again, and deprive us of being next to each other every single day. How am I gonna live through one day without him next to me? I didn't know, but all I knew was that it's going to be so hard, and indeed it's so hard. I kicked all of those thoughts out of my head when I heard him talking with his thick sleepy voice: "go back to sleep", he told me. And I did, I went back to sleep, the picture of him smiling still stuck in front of me making me forget about the pain the future is holding for us, making me feel safe, diving into the world of darkness again.
