"No" it took me a while to think of an answer and a truthful one and I somehow came to the conclusion of no,
"What?" was all Alan said,
"I said no Alan I cent be your girlfriend" he pushed me off him in a rage and I winced due to my injuries but he didn't seem to care,
"So for over a fucking year now I've been mopping about because I believed that there could have been something between us and I ruined it for you to fucking lead me on and fucking say no when I ask to be with you!" he shouted,
"It's not like that Alan" I mumbled,
"Then what is it fucking like Silent?!" he was fuming by this point and I could tell but for some reason I was scared, and that's when I realised why I couldn't be with Alan,
"I want to be with you I really do but I'm still not over what happened with Ben I'm still scared" instantly Alan's face dropped his whole body did and I swear I could see tears filling his eyes,
"What?" he said his voice shaky,
"I'm scared of you Alan I have to learn to trust men again and I do not want to be in a relationship where I'm scared because of something someone else did" I said looking down,
"I understand" he mumbled and went upstairs,
"Alan wait! how am I suppose to get upstairs?" I shouted but he was too far to hear me, so I called Austin,
"Austin?"
"What's he done?"
"No nothing it's what I've done but I need you to come over and take me back upstairs"
"Ok but you have to tell me everything"
"Ok" and the line went dead, about 10 minutes later Austin walked through the door, he sat down on the sofa next to me,
"Ok missy spill"
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I'm a mother fucking cat!! (Alan Ashby)
FanfictionSilent is property of Ben Bruce, but is having trouble with his idea of a normal relationship, will a Ginger who is everything Ben isn't and more steal her away from him? Will her life change for better? or for worse?
