Spoken Word Poetry

Why can You so cruel?

I put my dreams up too high, I though you feel the same way. Now all I need is not to cry because tears wont take the pain away. For a moment I though you knew, for a moment I though you cared, for a moment I thought you meant "I LOVE YOU", for a moment I thought you appreciated the love we shared but I was wrong. I was wrong knowing you that you are the person I can trust, the one that I could live forever. Everything was wrong and I dont know if it is my biggest mistake of loving you.

Ano ba kasi ang lama mo? You are just a guyhaving fun today at pinaglalaruan lang ang tulad ko. You are that guy having fun today with me and tomorrow will make me cry.  I fake my smile, I said I am okay and pretend that I am happy even though deep inside patay na patay na. I keep on calling you sweet kasi akala ko totoo ka. Your love is one thing that I cannot beat that is why I just cant let you go. That was just before. Everything changed. Everything has fallen apart all because of you. 

You made me feel such a fool. I dont want to love you anymore. Why did love have to be cruel? Why is there nothing that I can do? Love can sometimes be great. That is one thing I cannot deny, but when it turns in to hate, everything will be disabled.

You are the gut that broke me into pieces. You are the guy that made me a mess. You are the guy that slowly ceases  after I finally confess. Listening to any sad song made me feel the stupidest person alive. It made me realized that what I feel ever since is wrong because I wont get you no matter how much I strive. I think thaw was pretty good. Maybe it is much better for me that you are not mine coz you dont deserve someone who's too lovely. I am strong enough to let you go. I am strong enough that of before.

I know that saying goodbye to your love is heart breaking moment. You feel as if apart of you is being separated and going of to do something else. You are used to relying on each other for everything. Every decision from the smallest to largest is made with the consultation of your life partner. When you are separated, you must accustom yourself of living single. You dont have the reassurance of having someone to lean one. This feeling getting used to. But there is no need to be anxious because hopefully we will not be alone for long. Maybe our hearts need space, be distant to any pain due to heartbreak.

We dont need to push ourselves for someone na kahit kailan ay hindi tayo magawang panindigan. I learned my lesson so well.  The pain taught me that I should be happy na binitawan kita kasi I was given another opportunity to find and love someone better that you.

In life, there are so many things that can go wrong. We just always remember that its better to have love and lost it than not to have love at all. If we have this attitude, we can hold ourselves together during the hard times and rejoices that we have this awesome gift during the good times. 

Sabi nila, if you love the person so mush, try your hardest not to lose them because you cannot get over the feeling of loneliness. Pero naisip ko kung para saan pat lalaban ako sa kaniya kung hindi nya naman ako magawang ipaglaban. May mga bagay na kailangagng tanggapin na lang kahit na sobrang sakit tulad nang katotohanang may mga taong hindi ka talaga kayang mahalain kahit na nagmahal ka ng TAPAT, binigay mo na ang LAHAT, ginawa mo rin ang DAPAT tapos sasabihin lang sayo na SORRY, hindi ka pa SAPAT, hindi rin ikaw ang DAPAT.