A Knot (COMPLETED)

Chapter 6

Divya's pov

"You don't know how happy I am having you here" Tarun said circling his arms around me. He had brought me to his house and I had to play with it, just so that I could play with him in the future.

I had evil plans, I knew I was doing bad but I think Tarun deserves a punishment and I deserve a revenge.

"I'm actually sorry to say this Divya but—" before he could say anything I cut him off.

"I know I know, we should get married" I grumbled.

"So you know about it, I'm sorry Divya" he said

"That's okay Tarun, it isn't your mistake" it is. I thought after saying that to him. I flashed him a smile, I had actually forgotten how to force a smile as I had spent these 2 years happily and didn't have to fake smile. But I guess my past loves me so much, it won't leave me.

I can't believe I was disgusted by the person who put Me to sleep every night.

Yes, even after every horrible thing Tarun had done, I still had feelings for him. I loved him, I would never get sleep at night so I would hug his photo and sleep crying. I always thought Tarun wouldn't betray me, but I guess he was also just like others

"Where are you zoned out, Divya?" he asked me

"No where, we - we can get married, but when?" I asked

"Whenever you want, we can wait if you want" he said

"No no... Nothing like that" I said even though it's so hard to say that, it's really hard to hate someone and marry them you know.

"Divya, I'm so sorry" he said again

"Your sorry isn't going to heal My pain" I said, I said that quite enough, so he won't here it.

"I'm still sorry" he said surprising me, so he heard everything I said

"Yes I did" he said

Did I say that out loud

"No but I know what you're thinking, overall I'm really sorry for all the pain you got. I know it's my mistake, I'll try my best to make it up to you" he said and I kind of felt nice

"It's okay Tarun" I said with a smile, I wanted the smile to be bitter but I couldn't help but smile normally.

"Guess, I'll go home" I said

"Hey, you can stay here" he said

"No need Tarun" I said and grabbed my purse and left to my home.

I went home and the first thing I did was open my diary. My secret diary

I started reading the things I had written two years ago.

Dear diary,
                      Today is the day I left India, I came to Florida. I wish this will really help me forget the pain I had.... I really wish it does. I can't forget Tarun, it's too much for me to forget him. I don't want to move on... I know that eventually he will also move on, everyone will... But I'll remain stuck because I can't forget it. But I'm not ready to see Tarun get married to any other girl. But I know he will go ahead and marry Maya, so why even bother.

That page made me cry, I thought that Tarun would move on... But he didn't

He didn't move on not because he loved you, but because he loved Maya

Realisation hit me. He loved Maya not me, that is why he couldn't move on. I started crying again... I don't get the problem with me.

All of a sudden I felt nauseous, I got up but I wasn't able to breath, I started sweating clutching the covers of my bed. Tears were forming in my eyes

"W...at...s.... Hap....ing" I couldn't even talk, wait.... Isn't this panic attack am I having a panic attack??

Over these two years I got one more stupid disease, panic attack!

I started to calm down a bit.

Panic attack is caused due to heap lead of depression or due to heart diseases or sometimes overload of anxiety attacks. A panic attack can sometimes lead to heart attack.

Panic attack is kind of incurable. It is something that happens unexpectedly, if it comes ones then they will keep coming in the future.

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Hey guys!!

Panic attack is a very dangerous attack, if your getting symptoms like nauseousness, sweating, choking, chest pain, dizziness then please consult a doctor.

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