why me ?

           rose Prov

Think about it no one likes you rose .the boy with the perfect hair ,perfect cheek bones zayn said . aww look the little nerd is crying ,whatever. as I felt his body move away from mine and down the hall . I stood there sitting wondering why  am I going through this .the boy I love doesn't even see or notice me and when he does he only notices my flaws why do I have to go through something so painful when there's nothing else in life I would want but him. I fell to the floor of the empty hall of my hell whole of school. rose? I looked up to see my best friend amber. are you OK? what happened? rose look at me she said but I know if I look at her she will see all over my face the pain. we sat in the hall until the next class stared. as school began to end I walked to my locker I hate walking to my locker its all the way down the hall by some creepy stairs. psst.. psst.. rose I heard coming from the stairs. I looked over to the stairs to see the boy I love the boy hate .

rose come here zayn said as hes looking up at me from the stairs. i walk down three stairs its kinda dark I really can't see that well . hey I said shyly . I stood there looking into his eyes as he suddenly he pushes up against the wall as my breathing got heavy and my heart beat racing faster. wha..what are you doing?  I asked sounding very uneasy. can't you tell rose, I'm making you mine. zayn said looking straight dead in my eyes . your ? what , zayn I'm not just some chu toy. I said rather loud. shhh...baby girl your wasting your breath he said calmly. now let me tell you something i like you rose I have since I first saw you but... people shouldn't know . but why i said as tears coming down my face. well just because your the nerd. well.... well ... I tried talking but I blacked out .

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rose? ... rose wake up I heard someone yelling and crying . I woke up to a very bright light and to a handsome yet pitiful face. omg rose don't scare me like that zayn said looking straight into my eyes. but...? what how did I get here ?what happened? I asked sounding very sleepy .

            zayns prov

rose passed out after my harsh words. she had a very bad panic attack that cause her to black out . in my head I was thinking what just happened ? I just made the person I'm deeply in love with pass out. I yelled for help as our math teacher Mrs wood came to roses side and called the ems . I carried rose to the ems vehicle not taking my eyes off her smooth skin. as we made it to the emergency room they said I couldn't go in cause I wasn't a guardian or I wasn't her boyfriend. I told the lady I'm roses boyfriend . I didn't wanna leave her side. as a couple hours pass . I was laying next to rose as she was resting but I couldn't help but to cry. maybe if I didn't say such evil things to her then she wouldn't be here I love her . why the hell do I care if she's a nerd and who's  cares what other people think . you know I told myself I love this girl and I will do anything for her. I break down after thinking I could loose her. I started yelling rose..? rose wake up.

         ✅  Rose's prov✅

I began waking up to a sad zayn crying next to me .

zayn what happened to me?  well.. ummm you had a very bad panic attack you blackedout .  we where talking and I said some things that I shouldn't and you just passed out . what ? really?  I looked at zayn not with angr but with a wondering look . I remember zayn when he was small . yup I knew zayn when we where little. he was so nice and caring like what happened I wonder will that zayn ever come back .

what ? zayn said looking at me with a shy smile. nothing just thinking.

about?  he said wanting to  know. oh nothing I said laying my head down looking up at the yellow and blue ceiling. zayn why do you hate me so much?  I looked up to see a very sad yet angry zayn. I don't hate you rose I like you I just don't know how to show it . plus at school I got this i don't care kinda thing going on. I thought  people would think I'm weak for dating the nerd.

when truly your smart and beautiful I knew you for so long but I just stopped talking to you as we grew up

. oh well stop with the bad boy act its just not for you I said looking at him . really ? rose thank...s. mm.. just as zayn was gonna say something else .my best friend amber come running in the small room at the doctors . oh my god rose are you OK?  yes I'm fine amber I said  looking at zayn over Amber's shoulder. umm hey zayn amber said with a very hesitant shakey voice . hi he said with a little wave. umm exscue me a lady said in the door way of my little hospital room. hi rose how you feeling?  oh I feel just fine I said smilling at zayn. ok we called your parents they said your friend amber? can take you home the Lady said looking at her clip board. no..um I can take her home zayn said standing up with a soft smile. OK sure that's fine with me I said . OK go to the front desk for your discharge information. ok thanks

the lady walked out the door leaving me and zayn and also amber .well ambs zayn will be taking me home I'll call you later on ? sure boo see you soon ,you guys be careful .

the door closes Rather loud leaving me with a little sting to my ears. I try getting up out of the  hospital bed but I was feeling weak.

here let me help zayn said helping me get up. can you walk ? umm I don't know let me see I said struggling to get up cause of the weakness of my body . you know what love I'll carry you.  once again i get  butterflies at the word love . ill carry you out to my car then I'll come back for your stuff.

I go back in and get roses stuff . excuse me  an older women said from behind a desk as I was walking to the room . um yes ?

um well here this is all of Rose's stuff we cleaned  out her room for you . ok  thanks