Behind Those Eyes (FreenBecky)

The squad

"It's alright. Kasalanan ko naman ang nangyari." I am talking to Heidi, one of my friends. "Of course! I'm coming. Relax." I gave an assurance that I will visit them. They want to make up for what happened to me the other night.

In fact, I'm really the one to blame. If only I hadn't run away from my bodyguards, hindi sana iyon mangyayari. But still, I hate bodyguards!

"No. You don't need to pick me up. Magpapahatid na lang ako." After talking with Heidi, I looked at myself in the big mirror in my room. I smiled at my own reflection. Hindi maikakaila na may dugong banyaga ako dahil sa physical features ko. Meron akong mahaba at brown na buhok. Matangos na ilong na sadyang kinaiinggitan ng marami. Sabi pa nila na pwede na raw mag slides sa ilong ko dahil sa sobrang tangos nito. Namana ko ito kay Dada. Manipis lang ang labi ko na may natural na pagkapula. I also have a different kinds of dimples. Long, upper and central cheek, and mouth corner dimples. They are one of my assets. But I think, the most attractive part of my face were my eyes na namana ko naman kay Mi. Mestiza rin ako kung ikukumpara sa complexion ng mga Pinoy. Namana ko rin ito kay Dada na may lahing British.

Matapos pagmasdan ang sarili ay pumunta ang paningin ko sa suot. I was wearing a simple plain signature black sleeveless that was fit to my body, a white maong shorts and a pair of chucks. Then I winked at myself in the mirror. What a perfect view!

"Hi Nanay, good morning po." Pag greet ko sa katiwala namin and I consider her my second mom. She's Nanay Selia.

"Good morning, Becbec. Maupo ka at mag almusal." She called me Becbec because that was my nickname when I was young. I still remember that she cried the first day I came back here. Alam naman ng lahat that I'm close to her because she took care of me when I was a little.

"Thanks, Nanay. Sabay na po kayo." Alok ko nang makaupo sa mahabang table na gawa sa puno ng narra. In its length, fifteen people can fit at the table. But sad to say, ako lang at si Nanay ang nandito ngayon.

"Thank you, Hija. Nag almusal na ako kanina kasabay ng mga maids at bodyguards." She answered then put the breakfast on the table. Siya ang personal na nag aasikaso sa akin dahil mailap ako sa iba naming helpers.

"Mabuti naman at pumayag ka ng magkaroon ng bodyguard." She said with a smile as she put the last bowl of food on the table. There are hotdogs, bacons and eggs. Simple breakfasts that are usually found on the table every morning. There is also loaf bread and hot coffee that smells so good.

"Honestly, I really don't want a bodyguard po." I started taking food and put it on my plate.

"Pero, Hija tama si Amanda. Kailangan mo ng bodyguard na kaya kang protektahan. Tingnan mo nga ang nangyari noong isang gabi. Napahamak ka. Mabuti na nga lamang at may mabuting puso ang tumulong sayo." Sermon niya habang kumakain ako. Nalasahan ko ang pagkain at napabuntong-hininga. I miss the foods in Manila and unfortunately, Nanay doesn't know how to cook those kind of foods. Mi also can't cook dahil palagi siyang kasama ni Dada. I also don't know how to cook so I have no choice but to eat whatever Nanay prepares. Ayoko naman na palaging sa labas na lamang kumain dahil nakikita ko kay Nanay na masaya siyang pagsilbihan ulit ako katulad noon.

"I can protect myself, Nanay. Nagkataon lang po na nakai..." I paused and thought that I shouldn't tell to Nanay that I was drank that night. "Nevermind. Anyway, can you please get the car ready before lunch po?" I'll change the topic because our conversation might go somewhere else.

"Aalis ka? Nagpaalam ka na ba kay Mi mo?" Tanong niya sabay upo sa katapat kong upuan.

"Not yet, Nanay. Where are they po?" I asked Nanay then took another bite.