Sanders Sides One-shots

We Meet Again (OTP - Prinxiety) Alt. [2/2]

Ship: Prinxiety (not really though)

TW: Swearing (not an overwhelming amount, but there's quite a bit)

Alternative ending of 'We Meet Again [2/2]'.

Note(ish) at the bottom!

Previously...

I didn't want the silence, no matter how awkward it was, to be broken. I hated it when things became broken. Too many things in my life had, like silence, my happiness and... my heart.

Special thanks to candidshots- and -dreamerbri for the new cover they made for me! Let's get started then!

I timidly sipped on the hot chocolate, obviously uneasy. I fidgeted with my hands and tapping my foot, nervous about where our conversation would lead. I had never intended in meeting Roman nor talk to him again, but here I was. 

I shifted around on my chair, trying to find a position that would somehow quell both my physical and emotional discomfort. Unfortunately the shifting only satisfied the former's expectations and not the latter's. Great. 

I lifted the cup to my lips again and for some weird reason, Roman decided that was the perfect time to start talking. 

"Listen, Virgil. I know I, uh, broke up with you 3 years ago and we didn't exactly leave on the best terms, but do you want to get back together?" 

I was so taken aback by his blunt statement that I spit the hot chocolate in my mouth at his face. I choked, coughing from both the bullshit that came out of his mouth and also on the actual drink. I wiped away the mess around my mouth with a napkin, sneaking a glance at a bewildered Roman who was covered in a mess of hot chocolate.  

"What the fuck, Roman. You spouted bullshit before you left and after seeing each other again after years, you spout bullshit again? What the hell made you think that I would ever want to be with you again? After you broke my heart like that?"

Snapping out of his trance, he hastily wiped away the hot chocolate before looking at me desperately.

"Virgil! There's no way you could mean that, right? I mean, we shared so many moments with each other so much! We had a spark! We loved each other!" 

"Yeah, well not anymore! We used to," I snarled, "but not anymore! Especially not after you said, and I quote, 'You're so pathetic. I can't believe I even considered dating you. What kind of delusion was I experiencing? You're scum. You're vermin. I absolutely despise your kind. You're always seeking attention. The scars, 'depression' and 'anxiety' are just lies you use for people's pity! You're not fooling me! I saw you smiling the other day! How dare you try to pretend you're depressed!'. I remembered everything you said. I remember how you didn't believe me because I smiled. I fucking smiled. Am I not allow to smile? Depression doesn't mean I can't smile. You were literally telling me that all depressed people are completely miserable and can't have happiness at all." 

I saw him visibly pale, his teeth chattering violently. I saw his defeated expression and that ticked me off even further. Did he actually believe that I would go back to him that easily? Did he think I had forgotten everything he had? Did he think I had forgiven him? What the hell did he expect?

"We have nothing anymore, Roman. Get it out of your head. Your 'delusion' this time is that you think I'm gonna come crawling back to you. I'm not as desperate as you." 

I began walking off, trying to get rid of the rage bubbling beneath the surface of my skin.

But I was stopped by a weak grasp on my wrist that made me wrench away in disgust.

"Wow. I had no idea you were that desperate. Does that change my mind? Does that make my heart flutter?" I pretended to think for a bit, "Hm... No." 

I saw him try to reach for my hand again, but I moved out his reach before looking at him resolutely.

"Ran out of tears long ago
Escaped from the depths of hell
Picked up my shattered pieces
Already resigned to fate
Forgot all of your sweet words
And the promises we made.

Somewhere along the line we delete,
The smiles left behind bittersweet.
No choice but to move on
Before it was all gone.
All gone.
All gone.
All gone.

It's all gone."

I finished my song and shot him a cross between a smirk and a sad smile before striding out the door with claps from other customers that I had forgotten about accompanying me. 

I noticed how it was already late, the starry night sky seemed the sparkle over me. I thought about what I had just done. It took guts but I don't regret a thing. And I highly doubt I ever will.

Absentmindedly, I let my legs carry me to the park that I would go to at night time whenever I needed to clear my mind. The sky, like my mind, wasn't cloudy. The moon was beaming brightly at me and I felt the wind caressing my face. I felt calm, years of anguish finally resolved and closure finally being brought to me. 

He had been the demon who had haunted me. He had been the voice in my head. He had been the light and darkness of my life. He had been mine. But not anymore.

And I was not his anymore either.

It was perfect.

Not my best, but it's been a few days since I've written.

These lyrics are mine, wrote them myself. You guys seemed to like it last time when I wrote my own lyrics, so I decided to do it again. 

I was tempted to use the 'Man, I Love Being Single' from Thomas' My Life With A Narrator video, but I decided against it. 

This piece was requested so I wanted to quickly get it out of the way. My next piece will be my vent piece, where I vent my frustrations and explain everything I've been going through. So look out for that. 

Btw, I love you ChickitaGurl. For everything you've done and everything you're going through.

Till next time! 

~Corynn