♡How I Found Him♡

Breaking Point pt#1

Wake up to a brand new day with the birds chirping outside reminding me of how colourful life is at the moment but mine was going to be black and white. I swing my legs to the side of my bed and I wear my slippers as I head to my bathroom. I shower and put on a  black Anti Social Social Club hoody and black demin jeans with my white converse. I opend my bedroom door and I smell an English breakfast being cooked. Knowing well what that means I drop my school bag on my side,run down to the stairs and head to the Kitchen screaming my lungs out. I open the kitchen door and instead of seeing mommy,I see the one man who had been absent for 10 months of mylife,the same man who broke mommy's trust but made her stronger too. The man who made me believe that love was non-existent,who made me strong and tough. Who made my walls so strong that now I wonder how the hell did Benjamin manage to break over them.
"Good morning daughter" he said
"Good morning Kiiriano,what the hell are you doing here?" I said calmly. Kiiriano was my father that left my mother and I 10 months ago and he never came back. Kiiriano was a mixed race of a South African and Mexican,he is the one that gave me these beautiful genes although my mother is hot too but I look like Kiiriano most. My slick black hair and green  and blue ocean eyes,my daredevil and savage part I took from him. I was a daddy's  little girl until he decided to cheat on mommy.
I hated him for that i and i told myself from that day on not to hold on to a man since mommy quickly moved on from him and made herself more comfortable with living with me. We didn't need Kiiriano any more,what he did to us was unforgiving and deceitful. The worst part about this whole dilemma is that my first name is a mixture of his and my mother's name combined.
Kiiriano+Ciara=Kiiara
"Why daughter;that's not a good way to greet daddy. I heard you screaming all the way from up the stairs and now you being cold towards me. Come give daddy a kiss on the cheek and a hug" Kiiriano said with the most sincere voice he used to talk to me with.
"Oh wow Kiiriano,you haven't changed one bit. I can't do that remember what you did to mommy tens months ago,huh? Remember the time I caught you cheating on mommy? Remember the time I asked you to stay and not leave? I grew out of love for you! Every time you called I wouldn't answer,you know why? Because I hate you. With all my heart,mind and soul." I responded as his eyes flicked with so much emotion. He didn't dare to hide the pain and regret while looking at me. "Kiiara I'm sorry,I  cheated in your mother once and that was the time that you caught me. I realized what  i did hurt you and I couldn't handle seeing my one and only daughter whom I loved so dearly hurt. Every time I saw you,you'd look away which meant you were ashamed of me. I felt like leaving you would make you at peace and I figured that it'd be better if i moved away so that you don't have to see my face and look at me with disgust. When you didn't tell your mother that i had cheated in her I was greatful  because I knew you never wanted to hurt your mother. I told your mother that same evening and she forgave me and agreed that its better if i move away for a couple of months so that you can get over this feeling. Your mother and I are still togather, I thought she told you. Baby,I'm sorry honestly. I knew you wouldn't want to see me so I moved but now i back. I'm here to apologize,running away from you was cowardly and I realized that so I'm hear to apologize to you. Kiiara Bianca Raven Essex,may you please forgive me,Kiiriano Peter Shaun Essex for all the stupid and unforgivable mistakes I've done. It would mean a lot to me." He said while his tears glistened his green/blue  eyes. I couldn't help but let tears roll down my cheeks and run to him. I felt so safe and everything made sense now. I needed my father not because I he was my male role model or because he was my father. But because he reminded me of me.
"I forgive you daddy"  I said while squeezing the life out of him.
"I bought you a new motor bike I hope you like it" he said as we pulled away.  He took me to the garage and showed me my bike. And it was love at first sight. I just stood there gaping at her,she was also matt black like her older sister. Daddy and I decided to go and eat breakfast and then he mentioned about mommy coming home too. I then kissed his cheek and left to Scarlet my bike. I then left for school.
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I rided till I got to school and honestly the rush felt good,felt welcomed and felt welcomed. Got to school and parked my bike and headed inside the school grounds.U walked to where the girls were and I saw the guys there too but what I had not expected to see was Linda. I stopped in my tracks and told myself to breathe. I went there and greeted everyone but something felt wrong. I went to Benjamin to give him his morning kiss but he pushed me away. A pang of hurt went throughout my chest. I couldn't help but feel rejected and I hated that.
"Benjamin do you mind if we talk? Privately?" I said with hurt perfectly laced in my voice. He didn't even look at me,he just walked away and pulled me with him. "Kiiara are you using me as a rebound?" Benj asked and it was at that pint where I realized that,that dimwitted  idiot named Linda actually told him I was using him as a rebound.
"What the Fuck? No why would i do that?"
"Damnit Kiiara I don't know. People are saying that you are playing me,that I'm just a rebound for you to get over Trevor. I want to know if its true."
"So you going to believe what people say over what I'm saying?"
"I didn't say that. Fuck  would you just answer my question. Are you using me?"
"For fuck's sakes Benjamin, I'm not using you. I can't believe that you trusting what people are saying about me. I love you too much to do such shit! Are you so blind that you can't even see it. My love for you runs deeper that ever. Dont you trust me? Who said this to you, huh? Was it Linda? It was wasn't it. You trust him more than you trust your girlfriend. Look I get it that you've been friends with since you can remember but Fuck. I was planning on telling my girlfriends that we dating today how much I love you but you know what. Seems like you don't deserve my love at the moment. We should take a break. Look we've been dating for a couple of weeks but already having trust issues and needing a break? Oh come on! Geez" I said and left him to go to Mr Reiles.