Becoming the most famous Rockstar-mom.

Chapter Two-Monica's smile.

"Hellooooo Hollywood!" I screamed looking at the crowd and realized they were all screaming at me with smiles. I put my hand over my chest and gave a bright smile. "Wow, everyone is out here to see me today..I feel so so loved, all I know is that I love you all." They all screamed "I love you too". I squeezed out a forced chuckle before starting to singing me new album.

I finished my concert and walked into my dressing room. I heard a knock at the door and I opened the door after fixing my makeup. "Oh, hello Mrs. Hill! How are you today?" I asked my manager (which was Max's former manager) with a smile and she walked into my dressing room. "Well, you know how you also need to recruit a younger kid that is looking for the dream to start singing?" I nodded at her and sat on my chair. "We got a couple of kids who are coming tomorrow for a singing contest and you have to decide who goes on tour with you!" Mrs Hill said with a bright smile and I jumped up with excitement. "Really!? That's great!"

"Haha, well I thought about it all by myself." She said while I grabbed her into a big hug. "Thank you! Thank you so much! Now I definitely have a motive to keep on my tour without hesitating to find out more ideas."
"Hehe. I'm glad I could help. I'll see you later Leona. By the way, Lily is bringing Monica to you so you can see her before she goes to daycare." Mrs. Hill left my room and I waved goodbye excitedly. I can't wait to do that contest...but I just can't wait to see my little cutie..! I thought sitting back down in my chair. I tapped my pen against my notebook thinking of new lyrics for my next album.

My first album was particularly about my past few years of my life and what I went through. My last song was about Max and how I'd try to move on. But truthfully I'll never move on. I don't want to and I can't because he's all I ever think about. His smile. His laugh that brighten up a room. He made me giggle, he may of been a asshole sometimes but I knew he loved me. He always teased me about the little mistakes I'd make in my songs or errors. I can't barely even sleep because I have the same nightmare ever single night.

All I dream about is seeing his face and how I let him down. I should've made him drive with us when I was in labor those couple months ago. He was to sweet and great if a man to die. He was my sweet man... and I...I let him down... I decided to write about that nightmare and how I've been feeling the pain. At least I'll get through this brain block. All I can hope is that he is watching over Monica and making sure she is okay every single second because that's his little joy he wanted to see. But that person took that away from him when he died.

They destroyed his life and was jealous to see him happy. He had a career, a fiancée, even a child on the way and they got angry because their life was to depressing and boring. They didn't want him to smile anymore. They loved pain and wanted to see the people he loved cry. I can't stand whom ever did that to the love of my life. I miss him every second. I can't stand to not see his smile anymore.

I suddenly heard another knock at the door and I jolted my legs across the room. I opened the door to Lily holding Monica in her arms and instantly Monica looked at me with a smile. Her blue eyes that reminded me of her father made my heart ache but also calm. I saw him in her all the time. I knew that he was making sure she was okay. "We finally got over here, I'm surprised we even got close to your dressing room. Your daughter kept attracting fans to her cuteness!" Lily said handing me Monica and I giggled forcing a smile.

"Well, she does have the cuteness so it's understandable. Isn't that right my baby?" I said looking at Monica and I started tickling her. She giggled and squirmed around in my arms. "Yeah, are you gonna talk for mama? Are you?" She drool a little and her eyes lit up with happiness like she was trying to talk. I smiled more to where it was a real one. "Yeah, you will talk for mama! Are you excited for anther day of daycare?" She squirmed around again and smiled making a squeal noise. Lily laughed and tickled Monica. "Wow, she reminds me so much of max. I miss him so much.."

"See ya later Leona, I'll take her to daycare now." She took Monica and walked out out the dressing room. My smile left my face and I muttered to myself tearing up. "You have no idea..."